Sunday, November 18, 2012

thankful for...

   Hello everybody! I hope you all are doing well. I'm doing pretty good. Looking forward to the holidays and spending time with family and friends. And relaxing!! So who's ready for Black Friday??? Yeah buddy! This guy is. Well actually Thursday shopping. As far as i know that maybe the only shopping i do on the most hectic day of the year. I am anxiously waiting. Even counting down the days. I just want a new PlayStation! Is that too much to ask?? And a new TV. and maybe a game or two. And a few movies. And...jeans. That's it i think. For now. LMAO! Oh and if i do get a new TV then I'm gonna need a new TV stand. Which i can already for see as an adventure. I'm really particular about things like this. In fact after i bought my current TV stand and had it put together i decided i didn't like it.  And if you ever have the experience of shoe shopping with me. Just be prepared. Fair warning. And yes i am i guy. Anyway i think I've rambled on long enough. Oh one more thing that should make a few of you chuckle. When i type i stare at my key board, i look up after i finish a sentence and reread it. I saw i made a spelling error. I raised my finger to touch my screen to highlight the error...like i do with my smart phone....Enjoy the blog.
     So this month on Facebook people are posting daily things they are thankful for. Well i like that idea but lets be honest I'm not on there enough to keep up with that, So here it is. This isn't on any specific order so don't give me any grief. First and foremost i am forever grateful for my parents. Granted they are in heaven but i still am grateful for them. They have shaped me into the person i am today. And they continue to inspire me daily. And i draw my strength from them and still believe they are the greatest parents in heaven or on earth. I'm thankful for my family. It maybe small but i know i can count on them day or night. They love and support me no matter what. Ive made dumb decisions and yet they still support me. Yes i know that's what family is for but, i appreciate it beyond words. My friends most of you are like family to me. And i consider you as my extended family.  You are there for me day and night. Mostly night right Erik? Time moves so fast and theres alot of times people lose touch with their friends. It has happened to me but my core friends are still here with me and for that i am truly thankful. Ive had so rough times and you guys were there for me and even when i didn't want/ need advice its nice knowing your all there.
    I thankful that I'm a healthy guy. Capable of moving freely throughout my day. Yes i have aches and pains but it could be alot worse. I take for granted that i have the ability to get myself in better shape but i just don't take the time to do so and hopefully i will start because i only have this body and i need to take better care of it. My cat Rocket, Hes like my kid. He is always here greeting me at the door when i get home. Keeps me company when I'm lonely and is a pain in the butt when he wants attention. But hes always a step behind me. Hes a pretty amazing cat. And unfortunately for him he gets to hear alot of my rants. But he doesn't seem to mind and he even seems to have answers sometimes. Now you all think I'm crazy. My job. Ive been there 5 years now and I'm so proud of that fact. My Dad was at his job 40 years, I have a ways to go but its my goal. I am blessed to have a job to go to on a daily basis. Somedays i don't wanna be there and my schedule is hectic but I'm thankful they gave me the opportunity. I complain but hey we all do.
    This part maybe a little silly but its me. I'm thankful for sports. Man where would i be without the Yankees? Or NASCAR? My dream was to play ball for the Yanks but it didn't work out. I love sports and well theres a point that was all i had so i buried myself in it. I get one month off a year from following my teams and sports. This world. Yes its scary and theres alot of bad in it but id like to think i have found a happy place. And have found my own little piece of heaven. I work daily to make needed adjustments but its a work in progress.
   To all of our troops. Past, Present and future. Thank you. From the bottom of my heart! Your daily sacrifice deserves more than a simple thank you. This is all i can offer, Its for your sacrifice that allows me to sit here and type this using my own words, I have the utmost respect for all of you. I have hopes and dreams. Goals for myself and for my life and without any of you i wouldn't be able to pursue these hopes and dreams. I salute each and everyone of you. Thank you for all that you do May all of you have a safe and happy Thanksgiving. To anybody who has had an influences in my world i thank you. In some way you have taught me a lesson. In some way i have learned from you. Im a;so thankful for my future and all it holds. Good and bad. The oppurtunities that i will have. The conversations and memories that will be made. The laughs. The tears Im gonna be thankful for all of it.
    Everybody have a great Holiday and if you go shopping black Friday remember your manners we are all there for the same reason. Theres no reason to be ignorant to each other. Thank you all for reading my blog. Stay tuned for more :)

Sunday, November 4, 2012

a quick thought here

   Hey everybody! Hope this finds you all safe and sound to whatever extent is possible. So as you all know the East Coast was hit by Hurricane Sandy.  Well maybe you don't. Just wanted to take a second and send my thoughts and prayers to all those effected by this tragedy. I know it doesn't help clean up or fix anything but its really heart felt from me. Hopefully the clean up goes fast . We got wind and rain here not much damage. The bridge flooded but that was about it. Hopefully those who are able to help can and will. Even a small donation will help. These people have lost all of their possessions and homes and some even lost loved ones. Now i know money cant bring anybody back from the dead. And i am no way saying money is more important but it would help the red cross and other efforts. Please keep in mind that its November and the days and nights are getting colder so any blankets or warmer clothes would be appreciated too. Thank you for your time and thanks for your support.  And remember someday you may need a helping hand. Wouldn't it be nice to know there are people out there willing to help?

I am nothing

        Im not real.Like a land of giants or mythalogicakl creatures created in someones imagination. Only brought to life by the readers imagination.Im that space you try to fill. The reason the object wont fit where you want it too. I wont allow this to happen. Because i take up that space. That moment in between the seconds that click on the hands of a clock just before the hands move. Im the space being pushed forward by the hands of time. The air in a room you cant see but everyone knows im there. You think you know but you have no idea. Im the reasons you have and need to proceed your daily routines. That voice you almost think you hear or the shadow you swear you saw. It wasnt real it was me. Do you understand this? No you dont and you cant, I wont let you understand. The part of your brain that allows your thoughts is me. When you react in any form. Happy. Sad, Mad Indifferent. anything you feel.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

What would it take?

What would it take to make you mine? Would it take money? Is that a factor? How much I make? Is that the cost to gave you? What would it take? Love? Unconditional love the kind you only dream of. What if I made it a reality? Looks? Are my looks enough to get the attention of yours I crave? Or am I ugly in your eyes only to get a first glance and nothing more? What would it tale to have a chance with you? What happens if that chance you take turns into a life of happiness? Would you regret not taking it? Given the chance to know me would you accept it and know the true me? The guy behind the mask and walls I wear to protect this heart of mine. I'm a complicated creature this comes with the man I am. What if I could make you laugh and smile? Is that enough to woo you? Or does there have to be more? How much more? What happens if all I have is love? Nothing more to give. If times get rough will you stay? Will you fight with me to move forward or pack up and run far away? If I swore by the stars and the moon in the night sky are you convinced? Are the words enough? The hours at work to give us the life we want is it enough? The time lost we spend apart would ot change your heart? Or does distance make your heart fonder? I ask because I wanna know. How can I have a chance with you if you fail to see the real me? How much of a chance do I have? A day? A week? A year? Would trips keep you happy or are the miles in our town enough to keep your heart from roaming outside the city line? Do you need to see the world just to see your my world?

Sunday, September 30, 2012

The trend continues...

        Hey everybody!!! Okay, i know its been while. Along while but in my defense I've been working alot of hours and doing six days a week. I know that's no excuse for my loyal followers. Both of you. No joke theres only two of you. Thanks Casper and Eros. I had a blog written and then poof it disappeared and man i was pissed cause it was really decent!
      Tonight I'm gonna talk about football. This may be a boring subject but i have to vent about my team. The dare i say it? The Bills...stop laughing!!! As i sit here typing this blog I'm still wearing my blue Bills hoodie. Why? Because its cold in here.LOL! Ive been a Bills fan since i can remember way before the infamous kick. That sent me into tears. Give me a break i was 8 years old. Little did i know the pain of that wide right game losing field goal would still send chills down our spines so many years later. I forgive you Scott Norwood. Then the following three seasons resulted in yes more loses in the biggest games of the year. But no other team has made it to 4 straight super bowls. Yes we lost but that's irrelevant. Since then its been a mess up in Buffalo. We haven't made the playoffs since 99 which we lost on the "music city miracle" Once again irrelevant at this point. I don't even know where to start i really want to just blast the hell out of this team and the players. But that would not make me a real fan. Then you can say "oh you're a band wagon fan" and "Win or lose stand by your team" And i do stand by my team. I love this team and dammit as a loyal fan i deserve a team i can cheer about. Not just for one half of football but for an entire season. And into the playoffs. Yes i said playoffs.
    So today we played the Patriots, The superior team in the AFC east for the last oh seems like 100 years. Man I'm tired of the Patriots. I dont know if anybody watched this game today but at one point we were winning 21-7 and then the wheels fell off and our awesome quarterback decided to throw interceptions. And the next thing i know its 52-28. I was a believer in Fitz but after today's game I'm no longer a fan. He stinks!!! We need to seriously seek a real franchise guy. We have so talented running backs. We lack the big play receivers . Yes we have Stevie Johnson but i feel hes selfish. If the plays not to him then it seems he gives up. Of course he resigned with Buffalo. There hes a number 1 receiver theres maybe 5 teams he is a number 1. We have the tools but dammit its just not working on that side of the ball.
   Now defense.....Okay people are blasting us for spending 100 million on Mario Williams. Let me say this i said this back when we were trying to sign him. I dont care if he stands there and doesn't tackle anybody  just the idea we went out and spent the money on a guy is awesome. Before him i dare say the biggest signing was T,O and to an extent Bledsoe.Before he got hurt last season Williams was a monster with the Texans! So give the guy time he will get better, Still a new team and new defense scheme. I think we have a good defense we just need a little more experience. The D was getting blasted for giving us so many rushing yards two players over 100 yards but they were on the field forever in the second half. That's what happens when the QB turns the ball over so damn much! Am i throwing Fitz under the bus? Hell yeah i am! 350 yards 4 touchdowns oh and 4 interceptions. Yes its the QBs fault.
    Ill be a Bills fan til the day i die. But i am worried about this franchise staying in Buffalo. I have read articles that they are one of a few teams that may head to L.A. And speaking of L.A they have approved the building of a new stadium. I will no longer have a team if they move. Sundays will no longer be football days. Why wont i cheer for the team in L.A? simple they aren't an hour from home. I wont relate with my "hometown team" How many Cleveland Browns fan like the Baltimore Ravens? i hear crickets....See? That's my point. I hope they dont ever leave but lets be honest people are getting tired of losing year in and year out. Our owner is getting up there in age and all word is his kids aren't interested in taking over the team. However i have hope that maybe some old players like Jim Kelly and Thurman Thomas may lead a group and keep our Bills where they belong in Buffalo!!! We really do need a better QB or he needs to get his head out of his ass and play like he did at the beginning of last year! If we plan on making the playoffs then we need to be able to close out games against tough opponents like the Patriots, Next up San Fran. Great! That ll be a fun game. Ass whopping coming our way! I know way to be a fan. Well I'm frustrated as hell! Well I've let this go on long enough! Someday we as a Bills nation will be able to celebrate and make the playoffs and maybe someday someway we will be playing in the super bowl again...Stop laughing at me!!!
;)  and as always go BILLS!!!!

Monday, September 3, 2012

end of summer 2012

   Hello one and all and all and one. Yes that makes sense....anyway. So how was everyones labor day weekend?Mine was rather uneventful. Strange because at one point Sunday night i found myself cheering for Jeff Gordon to win the race. Okay not too strange for starters hes my brothers driver and i really would like to see all four team cars in the chase so i will be cheering for Jr this weekend but i hope Jeff at least finishes good enough to make the chase.
     Okay so its not officially over but to me when September rolls around and football starts along with school then summer is over. It was a relatively decent summer for me. Work was slower than usual which obviously lead to lack of money but i survived as i always find a way to do. As with every summer there were things i didn't do that i wanted too. Such as going to a Yankees game. Going to Lake Erie Speedway or a Jammers game jeez i didn't even go to Waldermeer either. I did however find myself at the lake alot. Watched a few sunsets and walked the beaches a few times too. Something about the lake is just i don't know peaceful. One of life's little treasures. Defiantly have to say the highlight was going to Watkins Glen!!! Man that is an experience of a lifetime! Although Junior didn't finish well it was still awesome! I cant wait to go again next year i hope!! And hopefully ill be sporting some 88 championship gear!!!
    I didn't hang out with friends as much as i would have liked but the time  we spent together was as always good times were had by all. Oh i actually  went to the fair this year too. Haven't done that in a few years. Time just seems to be going faster and faster ever year. Days just fly by with no slowing down. I'm going to be 31 in a few weeks already. Like seriously. As i always seem to be doing I'm trying to improve aspects of my life. Theres so many things i wanna fix and its all at the same time i don't know where to start so i try to do them all at once and well it wears me out and i stop doing them all. I don't know where i lost my motivation in myself but dammit i really need to figure something out.Steady hours at work would be a help. hopefully it'll get better.
   A look forward. So fall is approaching and that means cooler weather. Falling leaves. pumpkin pies and the evil s word. But with every season its kind of a like a new start. I mean yeah with 6 feet of snow on the ground it kinda prevents a walk on the beach but it means skiing. I'm kind of hoping with this winter i can really focus on the areas i wanna fix.And it will be kind of easier because while there are things to do but not as much. I can only go so far into the yard before i walk into a snow bank. But hopefully that's a few months away but i have my doubts.
   One of my favorite things about football season is fantasy football!!I enjoy playing and i will give myself an ulcer arranging and rearranging my teams around ten times a week. okay I'm not that bad but it seems like it sometimes. I have two teams on Yahoo. Didn't get all the players i wanted but i think ill be okay. As long as my guys stay healthy and well as the past few seasons have proven I'm the regular season champ! Come playoff time i lose and lose bad. Last year i lost all the playoff games. Yup not bad. Ha ha. Id run through my lineup but don't really want too right now. Maybe this year the Bills and i will turn our luck around. I want them in the playoffs and i want to win the fantasy football championship!!! Ill take the top three though. Would really like to make it to a game this year but it looks doubtful this year. Id really like to go to the Thursday night game. That would be awesome.
   I have the TV on CNN and no i really don't have an affiliation so, they are running a special on Barack Obama. I don't follow politics close enough to know any of it, Its all someones opinion anyway. Waiting for American Choppers to re air so i can watch that. Well ill talk to you all another time. Gonna be a long shift tomorrow at work. Thanks for reading. Stay safe goodnight.

Saturday, September 1, 2012

its been awhile..

   Hello everyone!! Yes im still around! Its been kind of hectic since i went back to work. Crazy hours. Long nights and by the time i get home im too tired to even think of anything but sleeping. So how is everyone? speak up i cant hear you!! Well its already labor day weekenf so i guess this means summers over well unofficially but to me when football starts it means back to school.
    So i have to confess dropping a boulder on my toe wasnt the smartest of ideas. Number one it hurt really bad. Number two walking was a bitch! I looked like i was an old man hobbling through work. Yes i still went to work! Man i havent been in pain like that in awhile. It still hurts but probably only because im waering steel toed shoes now. Haha yes i know a little too late but better late than never. Well let me correct myself here. My brother and i were moving these stupid boulders from the side yard using the trailor he has to haul various items with. This trailor has a latch that is suppose to well latch. We had one boulder in and because i wanted to get in the house and start cooking dinner i was in a hurry so famous last words lets just haul em both now. Yes for the record he said we should make a third trip. So as we get the second one on BOOM! instant pain as i yanked my shoe and foot from under this gosh dang boulder!!! To the ground i went as i sat there saying a chouce word or two i was kind of scared to take my shoe off. Oh my gosh it really hurt and thats beyond mild.My brother asked if i wanted to go to the hospital which i literally laughed at him and said no im okay. Somehow as i sat on the ground i think he knew i was lying well trying to be a tough guy. He said "thats it were done for the night' " Nope not yet we gotta move the last ones" So i got to my feet and in my head i was, and this is the gods honest truth as i sit here typing this, i thought about Triple H finishing the match after he tore his quad the first time. Honest to god i did! So i finished moving the boulders and went in the house and iced my toe. That night i slept like crap! All i could feel was my toe throbbing. Ugh!! Like i said work the next few days were a challenge but i survived it and its been almost two weeks now. I have yet to lose my toe nail and im really hoping it doesnt happen. Im pretty leary of smashing my toe on things so im really cautious about it. Id post a picture of it but im not sure yall would care to see my hurt toe.
     So whos excited for football to start?? Iam probably more excited for fantasy football than real football. I have two teams both on yahoo. Im sure i will ramble and tell you guys all about it as the season goes on. I think one of my teams is better than the other but we will see. I am as i call myself the regular season king but come playoffs. I choke! Who knows maybe just maybe this will be the year. And hey we are all undefeated at the start of the season. The Bills have fastly improved their defense and hopefully we will finally make the playoffs. I dont care if we lose in the first round i just wanna make the playoffs. Its been a long time Lets see...99? i think.  Anyway as evryone has said the offense depends on Fitzpatrick. I agree to this and we have to hope the injury bug skips us this year. I thnk we can at least finish second behind the Patriots in the division. No i dont have a super bowl prediction i tend to stay away from things like that. We can have a solid year though. Its getting to get busy in sports for me. Nascar is starting the chase in two weeks and i can FINALLY say DALE JUNIOR WILL RACE FOR THE CHAMPIONSHIP!!!!! This really makes me happy! Hell even if we dont win it at least we can say this year counted. I still say Jimmie Johnson is the guy to beat and We will finish 3rd in points. And i think next year we will be a real threat for the title! I will probably die on the spot if Junior wins the championship, Oh my gosh you have no idea how estatic i will be!!
   I havent talked about the Yankees yet and we are currently struggling pretty badly. Injuries are starting to catch up to us and so is age. I hate to say this but we really need some yunger talent on this team. I dare not say rebuild yet but its probably on the horizon. I can say and it brings a huge smile to my face to report the red sux lost tonight 20-2 hahahahaha thats great! They have collapsed again this seasom and Bobby Valentine wont be manager next year i can almost guarentee that. Well im gonna close this down tonight. Thanks for reading. And i will try to write more ive had some ideas but just not much time and wasnt really sure where i would go with the ideas i did have. Well good night everyone Go 88 and Bills and  Yankees!!!!