Its so amazing how much things change. Even just a little. Most of the times we don't even realize it has happened. And I'm not talking about the Tupac song. Ive been doing alot of thinking and reflecting over the past few days. Forgive me I'm a very nostalgic guy. I noticed it alot tonight when i was hanging with my buddy Erik. We were at Denny's and i realized i didn't recognize a single employee. This may not sound like much to any of you but there was a time we would walk in there didn't have to tell the waitress our drink order because she knew. And we always got the same table just because they knew. Hell sometimes we didn't even have to say what we wanted just simply say " the usual" Its rare nowadays to be able to do that. Unless of course you eat at a local restaurant like a mom and pop spot.
When i got home i looked at my brothers place and thought it looks the same but so much has changed. Then i looked at my place and thought the same thing. People come and go in our lives. We are fortunate to find and keep friends. I can name at least ten people who i never thought id lose contact with and yet they aren't around anymore. Its kind of sad and this always makes me wonder why these people were brought into our lives at that time and what purpose they may have served us.
What can cause a relationship to cease to exist? Why do things have to change? Everything changes even if we don't notice it because it takes years. Think about the shore of a lake. It may always look the same but its slowly being eroded by the water. What makes our lives change? For better or worse?Why can a person come into our lives become a friend then lose contact after awhile? I understand life gets busy but for it to change that drastically. They say nothing is forever and that's so true. People change,times change, places change.I can look at Erik and my friendship and say its different than it was even just a year ago. Not in a bad way, We both have grown in different aspects.We aren't the same rambunctious guys.
We cant really stop things from changing it happens. Its part of life and part of human nature. So many things factor into it. The death of a loved one, losing my Dad has been one of the hardest things i still deal with every day.Tonight driving home i started to miss him badly. I wonder how things would be different if he were still here.Losing a girlfriend or boyfriend can cause changes for a person after awhile you just get use to having that person there for comfort and having somebody to talk to. I mean i can sit here and list a bunch of things but i wont. What causes a person to choose the path they take? I mean we all could have done something different with our lives had we made different choices. I was looking at the night sky earlier and it occurred to me this doesn't stop. The cycle of life will continue day in and day out.The things i don't see at night when I'm working such as the sunset or the warm breeze i have to take time and experience when I'm not at work. Tonight people were having fun, fighting, laughing, crying, etc etc but we will wake up tomorrow, God willing, and do it over again. But the one constant is the sun will rise and set the darkness of night will cover our sky like a blanket regardless of what happens with us or what changes occur.
I don't wanna say i hate changes. But i sure do miss when life was so much more simpler. I took for granted all the things i got use too. My friends.Going places with them seeing the same people all the time. I miss those things now that i seemed to take for granted. Well not really for granted but i didn't take the time then to appreciate them like i do now. Even if they went back to that way in the future it wouldn't be the same. Mainly because of the changes we have all gone through as individuals. Sadly those things we will never get back. Instead they have become memories we share with others. Thoughts we laugh at when we are talking about the old days. This is kind of weird to think about and its probably because i look at things differently and really try to take on different perspectives. Next time you are somewhere say Applebees think about all the people that have been at that restaurant over the years. All the stories that have been told inside that building. All those stories the people have lived. The building is just a building but theres so much more to it than that. Yes i know I'm probably crazy but its just a different way to look at things.
Thank you for reading this kind of long post. And I'm sorry for no intro i literally came in the house and grabbed the laptop because this was in my head and now my writers block is almost gone. Have a great Sunday everyone. Go Dale Junior! Oh how bout team U.S.A? kicking some major butt in the Olympics!!! My pride in this country will never waver and I'm so proud of each and everyone of those athletes medals or not GREAT JOB EVERYONE!!!
