Getting to know Erik Abbey..
How are you tonight? I'm good.
How was your day? um it was pretty nice. Got my headlights then came over here and hung out with you all day.
what are you doing over the 4th? you know what( yawning) i don't know probably watching the fireworks somewhere..probably having a beer. maybe two beers. maybe three beers and a shot of tequila no i don't like tequila
what did you want to be when you grew up?um..a professinal wrestler.
what was your ring name gonna be? i bhad a couple of the, I was gonna be the arc angel. and then i was gonna be and i stole this from Savio Vega i was gonna be Lord Vega. I wanted to be the guy that brought the Undertaker back to his dark side image. The American bad ass.
Why a wrestler?Why not?
Question with a question. It was. The only thing i really wanted to be. Thanks to Hulk Hogan and of course *breaks out his macho man voice* the Macho Man Randy Savage oh yeah!! and the Undertaker too.
What stopped you?uh, the fact that i wasn't driven enough. The fact that i concentrated on other things...like girls.
Girls aren't a bad thing though. No their a distraction. Especially when they are the types that hold you back and don't help you achieve your dreams.
You ever think about going to FCW? um. no.I'm not in shape enough to waste their time or my money.
Would you be a singles competitor or tag team? um. I think i coulkdve done either or, I think i would've been better as a tag team member. Not in today's setting but back in the mid 2000s.
what would your theme song be?ummmm..i don't really know.
WCW WWF or ECW? well the final stop i would've wanted would be WWF. But i would've taken tghe Chris Jericho route and toured japan and Mexico because with all that experience it would make you a better performer. I mean god Jericho could have a match with gillberg and have a 3 star match. Hell he made Goldberg look good.
You have creative control over your character. What do you do with him? well clearly i make myself wwe champion after marrying into the family. he he. its not what i would do its what i wouldn't do.
What wouldn't you do? um, well the point of having creative control is so they cant make you look like a doofus. like Ala Bret Hart how he didn't do things that would jeopardize his legacy or his character.
So you wouldn't join the infamous "kiss my ass club?" no. if anything id turn it around on him like*in Vince McMahon voice*Triple H!
Heel or Face? id probably go with heel. I'm sure i would've bounced back and forth but, i would've wanted to start a heel. Id love to have been like Mark Henry and call everybody puppets. "Mark Henry voice" Y'all a bunch of puppets!
Lets do WWF word association.
Vince McMahon- creative genius. But, maybe losing touch with reality
Triple H- Luckiest son of a bitch!!
Hulk Hogan- Probably the best thing to happen to the business in the 1980s
Bret Hart- the best there is, the best there was the best there ever will be. truly the excellence of execution.
Macho Man Randy Savage- probably one of the best characters ever, hes brought alot of joy to our lives. *if you all only knew*
Shawn Michael's- probably one of the best party guys ever, until he found d Jesus
CM Punk- um, an inspiration. He showed me speaking your mind gets you a wwe championship!
The death of Chris Benoit- A horribly tragic event that lead to the crappy PG stuff we have today
Change one thing about today's product-just one?!? how fake and scripted it is. how theres no um, ayyemp at keeping it realistic., no attempt at keeping heels and faces separate.
You re a wrestler. Would you take a performance enhancing drug-no. if i cant achieve it myself i don't want it
Not even for more money and fame? nope.
deeper stuff
What do you regret the most? not taking advantage of certain opportunities that were place in front of me. involving things that were given to me . time my mind things that would've helped me lose weight.
What made you change your mind about the surgery? um, i saw that other people that ent through it had complications and other people that had it it didn't stick. Its a tool like anything else to help you lose weight.
I'm glad you didn't do it-
Do you ever feel like your being held down? yup. damn Bret Hart!!
If you could change just one thing what would it be? my will power. i could say what i look ;like. i could say my weight but, without will power it wouldn't stay.
If you could go back and tell yourself something at age 12 what would it be? regulate your diet and believe in yourself.
I think you'd be a good mentor for kids. you think i would be? yes, why thank you!
What advice would you give to your sister? Hahaha, um, well obviously to believe in herself and not be so gullible.
Good vs Evil who's side do you choose? i choose my own side. cause to choose one you'd have to believe one is stronger than the other
Who do you miss? who do i miss? my grandmother. i really don't habe any other people to miss.* sorry Malone*
If you could marry any celebrity who would it be? ohhhi would probably marry AJLee.
5 things on you re bucket list? 1. become sussecful 2. go to NYC and sleep with a model 3. go to Cali sleep with a movie star 4. meet the undertaker 5. have a kid
where do you see yourself in 5 years from now? i dunno. hopefully thinner thanks to @DDPYoga and #Insanity and in college for real this time.
do you like anybody?No not right now.
What is your favorite memory of us? probably the road trips to Virginia regardless how it all turned out.
why did you delete me? *laughs* i was beating you to the punch.
i was just kidding around! Its all good!
Favorites
drink? coffee
food? spaghetti
day? Tuesday
month? December
color? blue
snack? banana chips
eye color? blue or green
hair color? dark. black, brunette
sport? football
movie? i don't really have a favorite movie.
song? eye of the tiger-survivor
athlete? i don't think per say i have a favorite athlete
past time? video games @Eros_helios69 on the PSN
day or night? night
Whats something most don't know about you? i enjoy classical music
what do you want your message to be? no matter what it is question everything
was 9/11 a conspiracy? i dont kno but, it sure as hell is suspicious
what are they hiding? the truth
what are you talented at? driving!
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Saturday, June 8, 2013
Game 3 VS Seattle
With the Yankees playing on the West Coast it means Saturdays game started at about 4:00 pm East Coast time. I was interested in seeing how we would overcome yesterdays defeat. Andy Pettitte was on the mound which normally means good things for us. Although this year he has been struggling a bit. Coming into the game he was 4 and 3 coming of a stint on the disabled list. I always always try to watch him pitch. Hes one of my favorites and I love the glare over the glove. In fact I use the glare when I'm bowling! I glare at the pins. GRRR watch out pins!!! Although Andy has struggled throughout his career against Seattle. At 12-13 the M's are the only American league team he has a losing record against. Saturday was different He looked focused. Waiting on every batter to step in the batters box on every pitch. And early on he was dealing. Getting a lot of ground outs. Andy's final line was 7 1/3 inning pitched gave up only 3 hits and the lone run of the game for the Mariners. He had 6 strikeouts. It was a historic day for Andy earning his 250th career win. 213 with the Yankees. Sadly, though I don't think he will reach the magic number of 300.
Offensively the Yankees scored in the first inning like they did in Fridays game. Second baseman Robinson Cano drove in the games first run when he drove Mark Teixera in. Cano now has 40 RBIs on the season. In the fourth inning Seattle got on the board. The Yankees quickly answered in the top of the fifth when Jayson Nix drove in the first of two RBIs on the day. Brett Gardner had two doubles on the day and was 3 for 5. The Yankees left a lot of guys on base. I think at my last count there were at least 8. In Fridays game I made note we were just missing pitches. Today though we were making better contact. Vernon Wells who had been struggling the past few games had 2 hits. Maybe hes starting to find his groove. On another note. The Seattle crowd gave a standing ovation to their rookie catcher Bantz it was his first career at bat in the bigs. He struck out going 0-2.
The score was 3-1 going into the 9th after David Robertson made the 8th a little interesting. The 9 that means one man. Mariano Rivera. Hes having a solid year blowing one save which came against the Mets. Rivera faced 5 batters and the Mariners had 1st and 2nd with one out. Rivera struck out the side to save his 22 on the year. Rivera has 36 saves VS the M's. I don't know if I will be able to do a Yankees recap tomorrow. NASCAR is on at about the same time. Although maybe ill record the gamegame and watch
Offensively the Yankees scored in the first inning like they did in Fridays game. Second baseman Robinson Cano drove in the games first run when he drove Mark Teixera in. Cano now has 40 RBIs on the season. In the fourth inning Seattle got on the board. The Yankees quickly answered in the top of the fifth when Jayson Nix drove in the first of two RBIs on the day. Brett Gardner had two doubles on the day and was 3 for 5. The Yankees left a lot of guys on base. I think at my last count there were at least 8. In Fridays game I made note we were just missing pitches. Today though we were making better contact. Vernon Wells who had been struggling the past few games had 2 hits. Maybe hes starting to find his groove. On another note. The Seattle crowd gave a standing ovation to their rookie catcher Bantz it was his first career at bat in the bigs. He struck out going 0-2.
The score was 3-1 going into the 9th after David Robertson made the 8th a little interesting. The 9 that means one man. Mariano Rivera. Hes having a solid year blowing one save which came against the Mets. Rivera faced 5 batters and the Mariners had 1st and 2nd with one out. Rivera struck out the side to save his 22 on the year. Rivera has 36 saves VS the M's. I don't know if I will be able to do a Yankees recap tomorrow. NASCAR is on at about the same time. Although maybe ill record the gamegame and watch
Game 2 vs Seattle
This is just an experiment!!!I don't even know how to start this! These are based on my notes from the game. Riding a four game win streak which saw the Yankees sweep the Indians and put up a 6 run 3rd inning in the previous nights game the Yankees looked to keep the streak alive. Hiroki Kuroda verses Jeremy Bonderman. Both pitchers were entering the game with high ERAs. Bonderman was lite up by the Twins in his first start of the season and Kuroda didn't have a decision in his previous three starts. Entering the game New York was 25-3 when they scored first.
The game started off fast for the Yanks when Brett Gardner smacked the ball to the outfield and with his blazing speed he ended up with a double. Cano drew a walk and Bonderman hadn't thrown a strike yet! But, given this was his second game coming off two separate injuries one of which was Tommy John surgery it was understandable. The Yanks scored first when Travis Hafner knocked in his 29th RBI of the season giving the Yankees the lead. Watching this game brought back memories of watching "The Kid" Ken Griffey Jr. play. Back in the mid to late 90's. As I sat here watching it seemed to me we were just missing some pitches. Both pitchers were throwing a lot of pitches. We just couldn't connect the way we needed too. Early on Kuroda was dealing. His pitch count into the 4th inning was 66. that seems kind of high to me. There was an interesting question posed on the YES network...Which four hitters would you put on the Mount Rushmore of baseball? TOUGH!!!! I went with Derek Jeter, Ted Williams, Mickey Mantle and Ken Griffey Jr. Although Griffey Jr was plagued by injuries I still think he was naturally talented. Seattle's big inning came in the 4th. 6 straight batters reached base and Kuroda would be gotten out quicker had a ground ball not hit 2nd base causing it to bounce up into the air and away from.. Cano I believe. Seattle had bases loaded twice in that inning. So we were fortunate to get out only down 4-1.
The announcers kept saying if the M's bullpen get into the game maybe we could muster some opportunities. Bonderman was cruising. At one stretch in the game he had retired 9 in a row!! He ended the game having thrown 96 pitches through 6 innings. His final line was 6 IP{ innings pitched} 1 earned run, giving up 3 hits and walking one batter back in the 1st. Great performance! Meanwhile, Kuroda was settling down and although he had given up the 4 runs we were still in the game..Kurodas pitch count was at 110
The game started off fast for the Yanks when Brett Gardner smacked the ball to the outfield and with his blazing speed he ended up with a double. Cano drew a walk and Bonderman hadn't thrown a strike yet! But, given this was his second game coming off two separate injuries one of which was Tommy John surgery it was understandable. The Yanks scored first when Travis Hafner knocked in his 29th RBI of the season giving the Yankees the lead. Watching this game brought back memories of watching "The Kid" Ken Griffey Jr. play. Back in the mid to late 90's. As I sat here watching it seemed to me we were just missing some pitches. Both pitchers were throwing a lot of pitches. We just couldn't connect the way we needed too. Early on Kuroda was dealing. His pitch count into the 4th inning was 66. that seems kind of high to me. There was an interesting question posed on the YES network...Which four hitters would you put on the Mount Rushmore of baseball? TOUGH!!!! I went with Derek Jeter, Ted Williams, Mickey Mantle and Ken Griffey Jr. Although Griffey Jr was plagued by injuries I still think he was naturally talented. Seattle's big inning came in the 4th. 6 straight batters reached base and Kuroda would be gotten out quicker had a ground ball not hit 2nd base causing it to bounce up into the air and away from.. Cano I believe. Seattle had bases loaded twice in that inning. So we were fortunate to get out only down 4-1.
The announcers kept saying if the M's bullpen get into the game maybe we could muster some opportunities. Bonderman was cruising. At one stretch in the game he had retired 9 in a row!! He ended the game having thrown 96 pitches through 6 innings. His final line was 6 IP{ innings pitched} 1 earned run, giving up 3 hits and walking one batter back in the 1st. Great performance! Meanwhile, Kuroda was settling down and although he had given up the 4 runs we were still in the game..Kurodas pitch count was at 110
a new idea...
Hello Everybody! Yikes! Its been awhile! Go ahead and yell at me. I deserve it. Theres really no rhyme or reason as to why I haven't posted in over a month. Especially because work is slower than a snails crawl. I'm sitting in the middle of a four day weekend and rainy weather so its not like I'm busy.
So I've been toying with an idea. No its not original. Ive been thinking a lot lately about starting my own sports page on Facebook and my own sports blog page on here as well. Id mainly cover NASCAR, Yankees games, Bills games and WWE. Although I've thought about asking Eros if he'd like to do some wrestling post. Like post Raw and Smackdown. And pay-per-views. I'm not really sure where to start though. Plus working second shift makes it kind of hard to get home at 1 am and stay awake for a three and a half hour baseball game. It'd be a cool idea though. Post opinions and possibly video highlights. I dunno though it'll be a huge undertaking. Just on last nights game alone I had 3 plus pages of notes!!! Maybe ill post a blog after this one as an experiment and see if I like it. Anyways that's my idea. Like I said not original but id be something id like to do because I love sports! And man ill tell ya..I love the YES network!!! Its the only reason I switched to DIRECTV and its worth every penny. Alright, I know this is short but, I'm gonna post another blog about last nights game... Thanks for reading and any feed back would be great!!!
So I've been toying with an idea. No its not original. Ive been thinking a lot lately about starting my own sports page on Facebook and my own sports blog page on here as well. Id mainly cover NASCAR, Yankees games, Bills games and WWE. Although I've thought about asking Eros if he'd like to do some wrestling post. Like post Raw and Smackdown. And pay-per-views. I'm not really sure where to start though. Plus working second shift makes it kind of hard to get home at 1 am and stay awake for a three and a half hour baseball game. It'd be a cool idea though. Post opinions and possibly video highlights. I dunno though it'll be a huge undertaking. Just on last nights game alone I had 3 plus pages of notes!!! Maybe ill post a blog after this one as an experiment and see if I like it. Anyways that's my idea. Like I said not original but id be something id like to do because I love sports! And man ill tell ya..I love the YES network!!! Its the only reason I switched to DIRECTV and its worth every penny. Alright, I know this is short but, I'm gonna post another blog about last nights game... Thanks for reading and any feed back would be great!!!
Saturday, May 11, 2013
A note for my Mom
So here we are Mothers day again. This will mark the 19th year Ive done this. Its a very bittersweet day for me. On one hand I'm grateful to have the memories of my Mom. I cherish them and hold them near and dear to my heart. Then on the other hand id give anything to be living somewhere and come back home to take her out to breakfast and spend the day with her. Then again to be honest I'm pretty sure i wouldn't be far away from home. This day and the month of June are difficult but i know both my Mom and Dad would yell at me for feeling sad. So ill wear a smile and it may or may not be real!!! It doesnt ever get easier but everyday i learn a new way to cope.
What can i possibly say about my Mom? If you had the pleasure of meeting her then you know how great she was. There aren't any words i can use to explain her. She was just awesome. After school we would play basketball or throw the baseball or football. We use to watch scrabble after school too. Heck, she even would play video games with me. Mostly Wheel Of Fortune and Jeopardy. I always find myself wondering how different my life would be if she were still here. I know damn well i wouldve done alot better in school. That was a must!! Every spring i see the flowers in bloom and i think of her. That's the kind of woman she was. Beautiful. Loving and caring. Id always have a friend spend the night on Fridays and most of the time Saturdays too.
Theres not a day that doesn't go by i don't think about her even if just once. As a kid thunderstorms use to scare me and i was always scared that we would have a tornado. I don't know why but it was a fear of mine growing up. So every night there was a storm she would lay with me until i fell asleep. Always telling me we would be okay and nothing would happen. And well she was right. LOL!!!She always told me "I'm your Mother and Mothers know best!" Any Moms out there feel free to use that line! Man, it use to frustrate me! Nowadays i just smile and shake my head. She was right, Mothers do know best. Its funny the little things i remember. Her and i were standing in the kitchen when she told me Santa wasn't real. I didn't cry i think i told her i knew and she asked how i knew and i said i dunno i just had a feeling. LOL!!! "You are my sunshine" was the song she always would sing to me! Our house is yellow because that is her favorite color and well that's why its my favorite color too. Plus the sun is yellow and well the sun makes everyone happy.
Sometimes this life isn't fair. Questions that ill always have. Someday ill get answers. Someday ill see my Mom again and it ll be one of the reunions I've waited so long for. Shes one of my guardian angels and although i may not be able to see her. I can feel her and i know shes by my side as she has always been. So Happy Mothers Day to the worlds greatest Mom! I may not of had you in my life for a long time but the time i had i cherished! You taught me so many things through the years and i know you are guiding me through life. I Love you and miss you everyday. Thank you for being my Mom i couldn't have asked for a better Mom than the one i have!! Love always your sunshine <3
I really wish she were still here.
What can i possibly say about my Mom? If you had the pleasure of meeting her then you know how great she was. There aren't any words i can use to explain her. She was just awesome. After school we would play basketball or throw the baseball or football. We use to watch scrabble after school too. Heck, she even would play video games with me. Mostly Wheel Of Fortune and Jeopardy. I always find myself wondering how different my life would be if she were still here. I know damn well i wouldve done alot better in school. That was a must!! Every spring i see the flowers in bloom and i think of her. That's the kind of woman she was. Beautiful. Loving and caring. Id always have a friend spend the night on Fridays and most of the time Saturdays too.
Theres not a day that doesn't go by i don't think about her even if just once. As a kid thunderstorms use to scare me and i was always scared that we would have a tornado. I don't know why but it was a fear of mine growing up. So every night there was a storm she would lay with me until i fell asleep. Always telling me we would be okay and nothing would happen. And well she was right. LOL!!!She always told me "I'm your Mother and Mothers know best!" Any Moms out there feel free to use that line! Man, it use to frustrate me! Nowadays i just smile and shake my head. She was right, Mothers do know best. Its funny the little things i remember. Her and i were standing in the kitchen when she told me Santa wasn't real. I didn't cry i think i told her i knew and she asked how i knew and i said i dunno i just had a feeling. LOL!!! "You are my sunshine" was the song she always would sing to me! Our house is yellow because that is her favorite color and well that's why its my favorite color too. Plus the sun is yellow and well the sun makes everyone happy.
Sometimes this life isn't fair. Questions that ill always have. Someday ill get answers. Someday ill see my Mom again and it ll be one of the reunions I've waited so long for. Shes one of my guardian angels and although i may not be able to see her. I can feel her and i know shes by my side as she has always been. So Happy Mothers Day to the worlds greatest Mom! I may not of had you in my life for a long time but the time i had i cherished! You taught me so many things through the years and i know you are guiding me through life. I Love you and miss you everyday. Thank you for being my Mom i couldn't have asked for a better Mom than the one i have!! Love always your sunshine <3
I really wish she were still here.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
what creates us?
Hey everybody!! Hows every ones week going? Its the early hour's of Thursday and after fighting with Google about my password I'm finally attempting to put this blog, that has been in my head, on the screen and into a form that makes sense.
Have you wondered what makes us, well us? How did we become the people we are today? What part of your path if changed would have made you different? How can a person change who they are? I mean yes we can lose weight and become "a new person" but, that's not the person on the inside. So the outside will look different but would the person inside change? A person would probably be more confident in themselves. But, where does the motivation come from? And once found how can we stay motivated? And man! It takes alot to change how a person looks!! You have to eat right and exercise properly and it really takes an awful lot of work. And who can resist yummy brownies or cookies.(sorry about that) We live in a world where its all about convience. That's why theres a fast food chain on virtually every corner. Or premaid subs in stores. The list can go on and on. And if i keep going ill lose my blog.
Back to the main subject. What makes a person who they have become? Why are some people so nice and yet other people are so heartless. What has created it? When we are born we aren't born good or evil its created from the events in our lives right? From the boy/girl friend that hurt us or the best friend who turned out to be fake. But, why are some people able to rise above it all and still be a good person? Why is a good person turned bad? We are all taught right from wrong. So how come some choose wrong over right? Has life been that hard that they don't feel they have a choice? We all have a choice though. We choose our words, our actions. We create our own path in life. Why do people still choose to sit around and do absolutely nothing with the life they have been given? Famous athletes getting busted for stupid stuff. Gun possession. Drugs etc.. Why? You are doing something few of us get the chance too and yet you choice to make bad decisions. I tell you this if i was an athlete you'd never hear bad press about me. But, then again it goes back to the path we choose. What causes a good person to make that bad decision? I dont think people act without thinking. Everything we do comes from a thought. Theres no way around it. Even if not planned its still a thought process that makes us do things.
Why do we settle? I don't mean as in marriage. I mean in life. We get comfortable in a place and its a safe feeling. It scares us to step out of our comfort zone. But what causes it? Obviously we all cant go to the same place or do the same thing but what causes people to excel? Is there a part of us that "dies" inside? Is this the cause for the way we are? why am i asking so many damn questions??? Just a bunch of thoughts that have been in my mind as of late. maybe its all about who you know. But even if that's the case. A person has to be the start of the chain right? So lets say i wanted to make a change. A drastic life changing event. Where would i start? I've said this in a blog before but its not like a person can wake up and have a clean start. So, how can i make the change? Wheres the starting line I'm looking for? Even with a Small change its a start but, how can i keep myself or know the path is the right one..Theres a bigger plan out there and i may not see it but it'll show itself eventually.
Alright im done asking so many questions. I dont really know if any of this makes sense but hey i tried
Have you wondered what makes us, well us? How did we become the people we are today? What part of your path if changed would have made you different? How can a person change who they are? I mean yes we can lose weight and become "a new person" but, that's not the person on the inside. So the outside will look different but would the person inside change? A person would probably be more confident in themselves. But, where does the motivation come from? And once found how can we stay motivated? And man! It takes alot to change how a person looks!! You have to eat right and exercise properly and it really takes an awful lot of work. And who can resist yummy brownies or cookies.(sorry about that) We live in a world where its all about convience. That's why theres a fast food chain on virtually every corner. Or premaid subs in stores. The list can go on and on. And if i keep going ill lose my blog.
Back to the main subject. What makes a person who they have become? Why are some people so nice and yet other people are so heartless. What has created it? When we are born we aren't born good or evil its created from the events in our lives right? From the boy/girl friend that hurt us or the best friend who turned out to be fake. But, why are some people able to rise above it all and still be a good person? Why is a good person turned bad? We are all taught right from wrong. So how come some choose wrong over right? Has life been that hard that they don't feel they have a choice? We all have a choice though. We choose our words, our actions. We create our own path in life. Why do people still choose to sit around and do absolutely nothing with the life they have been given? Famous athletes getting busted for stupid stuff. Gun possession. Drugs etc.. Why? You are doing something few of us get the chance too and yet you choice to make bad decisions. I tell you this if i was an athlete you'd never hear bad press about me. But, then again it goes back to the path we choose. What causes a good person to make that bad decision? I dont think people act without thinking. Everything we do comes from a thought. Theres no way around it. Even if not planned its still a thought process that makes us do things.
Why do we settle? I don't mean as in marriage. I mean in life. We get comfortable in a place and its a safe feeling. It scares us to step out of our comfort zone. But what causes it? Obviously we all cant go to the same place or do the same thing but what causes people to excel? Is there a part of us that "dies" inside? Is this the cause for the way we are? why am i asking so many damn questions??? Just a bunch of thoughts that have been in my mind as of late. maybe its all about who you know. But even if that's the case. A person has to be the start of the chain right? So lets say i wanted to make a change. A drastic life changing event. Where would i start? I've said this in a blog before but its not like a person can wake up and have a clean start. So, how can i make the change? Wheres the starting line I'm looking for? Even with a Small change its a start but, how can i keep myself or know the path is the right one..Theres a bigger plan out there and i may not see it but it'll show itself eventually.
Alright im done asking so many questions. I dont really know if any of this makes sense but hey i tried
Monday, February 18, 2013
Have you ever...
I don't know whats wrong with me.I have had the hardest time sleeping lately. Although Sunday night wasn't too bad. Saturday night was off and on but, i kept having weird dreams and they woke me up. I'm not sure if i remember them well, maybe bits and pieces. Nothing really specific though. Then I keep having this feeling that something bad is gonna happen. and i don't know what it is. But, i can literally feel something that's how real it seems. Ive had this feeling before but nothing came of it its just really strange. I don't know maybe my mind is just on overload lately and its making me delusional.
Part of me just wants to scream at the top of my lungs and the other part wants to hide in a corner and disappear,.All at the same time wondering why i don't feel good enough for anybody. I try and go out of my way for people and all i get is crapped on. I mean a guy can only take so much before he reaches a breaking point/. I was forced into a corner and had to make a really tough decision but it shouldn't have even happened. I'm to nice. Maybe that's my problem. But even if i become the douche bag that some people are what does it accomplish? Its not gonna put me in any better of a situation. It wont make people flock to me. Instead of saying "thank you" the next time someone holds the door open for me i should say "fuck you!" Then that brings me to my point. What does that accomplish? Nothing that i can think of.
Maybe I'm to simple of a guy. I mean come on if you know me then you know me. Theres no smoking screens. No hidden messages or agendas. I am simply me. Nothing fancy. Black and white. Boring. So how do i change that? Ive never tried to impress anybody. Why should i have too? Put up a fake persona to woo people? No thanks in my book that's fake. I'm not fake. I wear my heart on my sleeve. Someday if you try hard enough I'm pretty readable. Other days i build a front that you cant figure out. Nothing intentional its just the way i am. Maybe you can tell me whats wrong with me. Who am i kidding.? You're a computer screen you cant talk back to me unless i type my own response. "Yes I'm just a computer screen...sir.." \point taken.
I'm really just rambling in this blog. Maybe theres meaning behind it and there probably is and no i wont end up telling anybody because that's the beauty of it. You should take the time to know and really understand me. Theres always meaning behind my words its up to you to find them. I know you aren't gonna take the time too because lets be honest you really don't care. Just as long as i don't do anything that ll interfere in your life. And don't worry i wont. I have my own problems to deal with and work out but ill say this.. Ill be the bestest friend you've ever had. Just don't ruin it. Who am i kidding you probably already have. * kicks at a rock*
My thoughts are all over the place but they always end up in the same place. With her. I love her with all i have. I really wish things were different. Maybe someday ill get what i want. Ill just do what i always do and that's simple. Ill just keep trying because that's all i know how to do. Someday, yes someday ill finally get what i deserve ....
Part of me just wants to scream at the top of my lungs and the other part wants to hide in a corner and disappear,.All at the same time wondering why i don't feel good enough for anybody. I try and go out of my way for people and all i get is crapped on. I mean a guy can only take so much before he reaches a breaking point/. I was forced into a corner and had to make a really tough decision but it shouldn't have even happened. I'm to nice. Maybe that's my problem. But even if i become the douche bag that some people are what does it accomplish? Its not gonna put me in any better of a situation. It wont make people flock to me. Instead of saying "thank you" the next time someone holds the door open for me i should say "fuck you!" Then that brings me to my point. What does that accomplish? Nothing that i can think of.
Maybe I'm to simple of a guy. I mean come on if you know me then you know me. Theres no smoking screens. No hidden messages or agendas. I am simply me. Nothing fancy. Black and white. Boring. So how do i change that? Ive never tried to impress anybody. Why should i have too? Put up a fake persona to woo people? No thanks in my book that's fake. I'm not fake. I wear my heart on my sleeve. Someday if you try hard enough I'm pretty readable. Other days i build a front that you cant figure out. Nothing intentional its just the way i am. Maybe you can tell me whats wrong with me. Who am i kidding.? You're a computer screen you cant talk back to me unless i type my own response. "Yes I'm just a computer screen...sir.." \point taken.
I'm really just rambling in this blog. Maybe theres meaning behind it and there probably is and no i wont end up telling anybody because that's the beauty of it. You should take the time to know and really understand me. Theres always meaning behind my words its up to you to find them. I know you aren't gonna take the time too because lets be honest you really don't care. Just as long as i don't do anything that ll interfere in your life. And don't worry i wont. I have my own problems to deal with and work out but ill say this.. Ill be the bestest friend you've ever had. Just don't ruin it. Who am i kidding you probably already have. * kicks at a rock*
My thoughts are all over the place but they always end up in the same place. With her. I love her with all i have. I really wish things were different. Maybe someday ill get what i want. Ill just do what i always do and that's simple. Ill just keep trying because that's all i know how to do. Someday, yes someday ill finally get what i deserve ....
Friday, February 15, 2013
negativity
Hello one and all! Happy Valentines day well whats left of it. I hear the collective groans from the crowd. Geez, people lighten up. This is the perfect segway into this blog. Right down to business tonight...
Okay, i am a simple kind of a guy. I enjoy the little things in life and as i get older i have noticed i take less and less for granted. People come and go in our lives, thats just the way it goes. They are brought into our life for a purpose weither it be a stranger at the store or a friend of five years. I find myself enjoying holidays more now for the time i spend with my family rather the gifts or the food. Not that those were the reasons i looked forward to holidays but you get the point. Time starts moving so fast at a point in life we just seemingly run out of time for the ones that truley matter the most. Friends turn into family then into strangers in the blink of an eye. Now i know Valentines day isnt a "real" holiday and i read online that its just a waste of money. Flowers die, candy is bad for you and we shouldnt need a "holiday" to tell or show our significant other how we appriciate them. Pretty much, the article was somebody pissing and moaning about it. Probably a person that was "burned" in a relationship and although i know it does leave scars that will never fully heal. Move the fuck on already!! Why the hell are people so negative? Do you seriously not realize its rather pathetic. Always complaining it gets old real fast. Do you really think the rest of us wanna hear it day in and day out? Life isnt always easy this is a fact that i know better than most. And there have been days i have questioned the very existance of the sun. But, i did what most do and i dealt with it. I tell my girlfriend ever day that i love her. I told her the day before valentines day i dont need a special day to let her know how i feel. In fact she probably is tired of me telling her all the time but, i know what its like to be single. Or as the "anti-love" people call it "left to die alone" I chuckle. Telling her everyday how i feel doesnt make me better than anybody i just never want her to go a day without knowing i love her. And i appriciate all that she is.
Im not here bragging or anything like that i just find it annoying that people whine about being alone. There has to be a reason you are alone. Step outside of your bubble and be honest with yourself. Its probably rather easy. Maybe you dont treat people the way they deserve. Maybe you shouldnt be a player.( guys and girls apply to this) You probably shouldnt have taken advantage of that one person who actully cared. But, instead you played games. And look now Its valentines day and youre against it. So whats the difference between birthdays and valentines day? Its the same concept isnt it? You buy birthday cards, cake and ice cream. Balloons, streamers yada yada. Well eventully the balloons lose the air and get thrown away. Why do we spend money to celebrate a birthday? Valentines day is a day where we celebrate love and well if its the only day you let your significant other know you care then shame on you. So now people are against love? Only against it because they burned it and throw it away. Do i agree that its just a cooperations way to exploit people and make money? Yes, i do but, isnt that the way this world works? Its all about the dolla bill yall. Heres an example i use all the time. After 9/11 how many of you became "patriotic" and ran out and "bought flags to show support for America"? Or the support the Troops magnets that were on ever car it seemed. Well since when is it okay to exploit men and women dying for this country? Thats what it was/is. Those magnets and flags all should be free, instead they are lining somebodys pockets because "freedom dont come free".
I didnt see anybody posting on facebook or twitter about that. Or bitching and complaining about spending money on that. I really dont know what my point is on this blog. Maybe im just kind of ranting again. If your unhappy with your life change it, Do something about it. If you have burned a bridge you have nobody to blame but yourself. Right? Exactly. Its a "Hallmark Holiday" because you made it that way on yourself. Instead of being so caught up in yourself think of others for a change. I know that means being unselfish. A concept that some fail to do. Life is what we make of it. If you complain and play the poor me card people get tired of that hand. And we move on in our lives or" ditch you" but in reality youve done it to yourselfs.
On a happy note NASCAR starts this saturday night. Kind of like a preseason race. Then next sunday is the 500!!!! This guy cant freakin wait! Im not doing fantasy NASCAR this year though. Im going to play fantasy Baseball instead. I probably wont do very good but, its fun and thats all that matters because if i do lose..I promise i wont piss and moan about how horrible my life is and carry on. I wont waste your time on that pity party. Theres plenty out there to read about if you want to waste your time on it :) Have a gr88t weekend everybody!!!
Okay, i am a simple kind of a guy. I enjoy the little things in life and as i get older i have noticed i take less and less for granted. People come and go in our lives, thats just the way it goes. They are brought into our life for a purpose weither it be a stranger at the store or a friend of five years. I find myself enjoying holidays more now for the time i spend with my family rather the gifts or the food. Not that those were the reasons i looked forward to holidays but you get the point. Time starts moving so fast at a point in life we just seemingly run out of time for the ones that truley matter the most. Friends turn into family then into strangers in the blink of an eye. Now i know Valentines day isnt a "real" holiday and i read online that its just a waste of money. Flowers die, candy is bad for you and we shouldnt need a "holiday" to tell or show our significant other how we appriciate them. Pretty much, the article was somebody pissing and moaning about it. Probably a person that was "burned" in a relationship and although i know it does leave scars that will never fully heal. Move the fuck on already!! Why the hell are people so negative? Do you seriously not realize its rather pathetic. Always complaining it gets old real fast. Do you really think the rest of us wanna hear it day in and day out? Life isnt always easy this is a fact that i know better than most. And there have been days i have questioned the very existance of the sun. But, i did what most do and i dealt with it. I tell my girlfriend ever day that i love her. I told her the day before valentines day i dont need a special day to let her know how i feel. In fact she probably is tired of me telling her all the time but, i know what its like to be single. Or as the "anti-love" people call it "left to die alone" I chuckle. Telling her everyday how i feel doesnt make me better than anybody i just never want her to go a day without knowing i love her. And i appriciate all that she is.
Im not here bragging or anything like that i just find it annoying that people whine about being alone. There has to be a reason you are alone. Step outside of your bubble and be honest with yourself. Its probably rather easy. Maybe you dont treat people the way they deserve. Maybe you shouldnt be a player.( guys and girls apply to this) You probably shouldnt have taken advantage of that one person who actully cared. But, instead you played games. And look now Its valentines day and youre against it. So whats the difference between birthdays and valentines day? Its the same concept isnt it? You buy birthday cards, cake and ice cream. Balloons, streamers yada yada. Well eventully the balloons lose the air and get thrown away. Why do we spend money to celebrate a birthday? Valentines day is a day where we celebrate love and well if its the only day you let your significant other know you care then shame on you. So now people are against love? Only against it because they burned it and throw it away. Do i agree that its just a cooperations way to exploit people and make money? Yes, i do but, isnt that the way this world works? Its all about the dolla bill yall. Heres an example i use all the time. After 9/11 how many of you became "patriotic" and ran out and "bought flags to show support for America"? Or the support the Troops magnets that were on ever car it seemed. Well since when is it okay to exploit men and women dying for this country? Thats what it was/is. Those magnets and flags all should be free, instead they are lining somebodys pockets because "freedom dont come free".
I didnt see anybody posting on facebook or twitter about that. Or bitching and complaining about spending money on that. I really dont know what my point is on this blog. Maybe im just kind of ranting again. If your unhappy with your life change it, Do something about it. If you have burned a bridge you have nobody to blame but yourself. Right? Exactly. Its a "Hallmark Holiday" because you made it that way on yourself. Instead of being so caught up in yourself think of others for a change. I know that means being unselfish. A concept that some fail to do. Life is what we make of it. If you complain and play the poor me card people get tired of that hand. And we move on in our lives or" ditch you" but in reality youve done it to yourselfs.
On a happy note NASCAR starts this saturday night. Kind of like a preseason race. Then next sunday is the 500!!!! This guy cant freakin wait! Im not doing fantasy NASCAR this year though. Im going to play fantasy Baseball instead. I probably wont do very good but, its fun and thats all that matters because if i do lose..I promise i wont piss and moan about how horrible my life is and carry on. I wont waste your time on that pity party. Theres plenty out there to read about if you want to waste your time on it :) Have a gr88t weekend everybody!!!
Friday, February 8, 2013
February 8th 2013
So technically its the 9th but i haven't gone to bed so to me its still the 8th. Okay? Fair enough? Good. So i typed out a blog and well i didn't post it because I'm not really sure i want too. Or that i should. Its a slam on my character. I have to have somebody read it. That never happens. I am filtering myself, that's a first i think. Its not a bad blog or anything like that but i need an opinion on it.
Not that i write these blogs to impress anybody. Its just my way of venting, or mostly sharing my thoughts on whatever the case maybe. On with the blog. Please.
So first and foremost its my Dads birthday. :) Unfortunately, as you know if you pay attention, He is no longer here on earth in the body form. But, i keep him in my thoughts everyday. I fondly talk about him every chance i get. Now i try not to get all sad and depressed about these events. As i have gotten older i cherish these memories i have. I love talking about my Dad. He was truly a great man. I will never be able to fill his shoes but i do try. As the years fly by i look back with smiles instead of cries. At some point and time i will throw a celebration honoring my Dad. Probably in June when its a little warmer. Apparently, the two feet of snow we have gotten prevents such events. Happy Birthday Dad I love and miss you,.
Speaking of snow. So the East Coast is getting belted with yet another storm. This time its a blizzard. That's right Dairy Queen is dumping out ice cream all over the coast!!! Lucky, bastards! Okay i should make a joke because it is a serious situation. And i hope everyone manages to stay safe. You know what annoys me? I live in the strongest, richest country in the world and those people still haven't gotten money from super storm Sandy! That happened in October!!! Almost four months ago!?! And some of these people still haven't gotten the insurance money? Then whats the sense of having insurance if it takes this long? And by the way in case i didn't mention this...The storm was in Octo...oh i did say that? It snows in October!! These people have their backs against the wall heading into winter and well now the wall has been blown over! Yes, i know theres alot of paper work and blah, blah, blah but its not like winter is a once i a few years event. It happens every year. Now, i don't know of the conditions these people are living in but if they haven't received the money, i cant imagine they have been able to do repairs. Let alone before winter. And even if repairs had been done how much could have been finished before it snowed? I know Rome wasnt built in a day. But, We pay insurance for that exact reason. When we need it, it should be there in an instant when we need it most. Thatd be like going to the bank and them telling you " Yes, you may make a withdrawl but, you have to wait a few months. Sorry."
I don't understand how and why we as a nation don't step up and take care of our own. We have sick people who cant afford medicine because the cost is outrageous. Why aren't our troops home instead of fighting a war when theres a war going on in our country. Theres many wars going on here. If they were here they could help people recover from disasters and they'd be in their HOME country taking care of this COUNTRY. hence the reason they are United States of America troops. This is no way shape or form a knock on our troops. I love them for all they do. Its more of a knock on the leaders of this country. Half our problems are because we are too concerned with everyone Else's issues. Simple solution here. They come here disturbing our peace. We go there, fuck shit up and come back home. Lesson learned. Its like helping a stranger when a member of your family needs your help more. Maybe this doesn't make any sense and I'm just rambling. In fact this isn't what i was planning on blogging about. I really was gonna do a blog about my Dad. But, i started watching the news and well here's the result. Speaking of news....Why do they only show the sad stories? The murders. The rapes. The missing person. Yes, that's news and that's how we find the bad guy. But, damn man. A good, heart warming story isn't gonna hurt anybody. I was at work this week and the TV was on. The topic? Casey Anthony!!!Seriously????You cant talk about the cat that was rescued/ Or the woman that is now cancer free? Good stories. The guy who carried groceries for the elder lady. Happy stuff. And they wonder why the people walking around are depressed and pissed off at everything. Man i better get off my soap box!
Thank you for reading this blog. Stay tuned for more of my thoughts and opinions. Or you don't have too. Its your choice. Stay safe everyone i don't wanna see you on the news!!! Then again maybe you can get on the news for something good. just a thought...
Not that i write these blogs to impress anybody. Its just my way of venting, or mostly sharing my thoughts on whatever the case maybe. On with the blog. Please.
So first and foremost its my Dads birthday. :) Unfortunately, as you know if you pay attention, He is no longer here on earth in the body form. But, i keep him in my thoughts everyday. I fondly talk about him every chance i get. Now i try not to get all sad and depressed about these events. As i have gotten older i cherish these memories i have. I love talking about my Dad. He was truly a great man. I will never be able to fill his shoes but i do try. As the years fly by i look back with smiles instead of cries. At some point and time i will throw a celebration honoring my Dad. Probably in June when its a little warmer. Apparently, the two feet of snow we have gotten prevents such events. Happy Birthday Dad I love and miss you,.
Speaking of snow. So the East Coast is getting belted with yet another storm. This time its a blizzard. That's right Dairy Queen is dumping out ice cream all over the coast!!! Lucky, bastards! Okay i should make a joke because it is a serious situation. And i hope everyone manages to stay safe. You know what annoys me? I live in the strongest, richest country in the world and those people still haven't gotten money from super storm Sandy! That happened in October!!! Almost four months ago!?! And some of these people still haven't gotten the insurance money? Then whats the sense of having insurance if it takes this long? And by the way in case i didn't mention this...The storm was in Octo...oh i did say that? It snows in October!! These people have their backs against the wall heading into winter and well now the wall has been blown over! Yes, i know theres alot of paper work and blah, blah, blah but its not like winter is a once i a few years event. It happens every year. Now, i don't know of the conditions these people are living in but if they haven't received the money, i cant imagine they have been able to do repairs. Let alone before winter. And even if repairs had been done how much could have been finished before it snowed? I know Rome wasnt built in a day. But, We pay insurance for that exact reason. When we need it, it should be there in an instant when we need it most. Thatd be like going to the bank and them telling you " Yes, you may make a withdrawl but, you have to wait a few months. Sorry."
I don't understand how and why we as a nation don't step up and take care of our own. We have sick people who cant afford medicine because the cost is outrageous. Why aren't our troops home instead of fighting a war when theres a war going on in our country. Theres many wars going on here. If they were here they could help people recover from disasters and they'd be in their HOME country taking care of this COUNTRY. hence the reason they are United States of America troops. This is no way shape or form a knock on our troops. I love them for all they do. Its more of a knock on the leaders of this country. Half our problems are because we are too concerned with everyone Else's issues. Simple solution here. They come here disturbing our peace. We go there, fuck shit up and come back home. Lesson learned. Its like helping a stranger when a member of your family needs your help more. Maybe this doesn't make any sense and I'm just rambling. In fact this isn't what i was planning on blogging about. I really was gonna do a blog about my Dad. But, i started watching the news and well here's the result. Speaking of news....Why do they only show the sad stories? The murders. The rapes. The missing person. Yes, that's news and that's how we find the bad guy. But, damn man. A good, heart warming story isn't gonna hurt anybody. I was at work this week and the TV was on. The topic? Casey Anthony!!!Seriously????You cant talk about the cat that was rescued/ Or the woman that is now cancer free? Good stories. The guy who carried groceries for the elder lady. Happy stuff. And they wonder why the people walking around are depressed and pissed off at everything. Man i better get off my soap box!
Thank you for reading this blog. Stay tuned for more of my thoughts and opinions. Or you don't have too. Its your choice. Stay safe everyone i don't wanna see you on the news!!! Then again maybe you can get on the news for something good. just a thought...
Monday, January 28, 2013
With a new year, comes a new blog
Okay. Okay. I know Ive been a slacker. Really bad as of late and I'm sorry. There has been so much stuff going on. And Ive had many ideas rolling through my head for blogs ideas and well that's just where they have kind of stayed. I hope everyones Christmas and New Year was pleasant. Mine was the best ever only because she made it that way. I don't remember everything i got and that's okay because it was about spending time with the ones i love the most. I look forward to the new year and all the challenges it will bring. I'm as ready as i can be and i hope this year is the best year yet. On to the blog.
This will be a sensitive subject for some people. And forgive me if my thoughts are all over the place. I found my Fight Club DVD!!!! Ive been going through mad withdrawals. But, no longer the case. Okay so as many of you have probably heard by now Lance Armstrong has become "the most hated man in America". A liar, a disgraced cyclist, So on and so forth. But Lance Armstrong also is a cancer survivor. Given a less than 10% chance of living. In fact it was just a matter of time before he died. I have been down the road of cancer. No i have never had the disease in my body but i saw what it did to my Dad. My Dad didn't battle his cancer for even two years before he succumb to the illness. That summer Lance went on to win the Tour De France. For those of you that don't know the Tour is a two week cycling event that takes place over in France. Its the biggest event in cycling. I knew of Armstrong and the fact that he was a survivor made me proud to see someone honor all the cancer patients all over the world. And personally it was a small somehow gratify feeling to know he kicked cancers ass!!
I wasn't a huge fan of cycling but when the Tour was on id watch ESPN to see how he was doing. Over the course of his domination(or lack there of) He would win seven straight Tour De France titles. I guess i was really naive to think he wasn't doping or cheating. I mean come on this guy defied death and beat the deadliest disease in the world. So if he could beat that why couldn't he win seven straight titles? He later would set up a non profit charity called LIVESTRONG yes i bought two of the yellow brackets and i still them Well one anyways not sure where the other one went.Fast forward to when the acquaintances started accusing of him doping i immediately said " Bullshit! Leave the guy alone he didn't cheat!" I just figured people were trying to make a name for themselves off Armstrong. You know how people are looking for the "Next Big Thing" It really upset me because i saw first hand the struggle cancer was. It was a fight. And this man beat it. Why cant they just accept it as a miracle and let him be? As to be expected he denied denied denied any wrong doing. What would he have to gain? I mean come on he was given a second chance at life why would he cheat? He had already won the biggest "race" of his life.
Little by little though it was starting to appear they had evidence to prove his guilt. In late 2012 or early 2013 he was stripped of his medals. And of course i was outraged. These bastards just aren't gonna give this up. What are they trying to prove??? Shortly after this he stepped down from his role at LIVESTRONG. Then came the report. He was doing an interview with Oprah where it was expected he would confess and talk about his years of doping. I was shock! Speechless! Pissed off and a bunch of other emotions but mostly i think i was hurt. Personally hurt. Like this guy basically was giving my Dad and i the finger. And the interview was so smug. Like he still felt he was the shit for what he pulled off. Arrogant bastard! I just sat there staring blankly at my television still in shock at what i was hearing. Then i though about all the people. I thought about my Dad. I thought about all of us who have been "victims" of this illness. I believed in Lance Armstrong. I believed in his seven titles. I believed he was a hero. I believed he rode for all the people affected by cancer worldwide. When Lance won we all won. We all celebrated a victory over cancer even if our loved ones didn't.
The reality of it all is a lie. Just a big lie he created to gain himself admiration and notoriety. He doesn't care about my Dad or Me or anybody else that fought the same battle he did. He won it. We lost it. He was given a second chance at life and he cheated death and well the rest of us for that matter. I don't hate Lance Armstrong. I don't wish any ill will onto him. All i wish is that i could sit down with him and tell him about the last two years of my Dads life. Tell him the joy and excitement we felt when the cancer was in remission only for it to come back stronger and it ultimately took my hero from me. Id tell Lance Armstrong he was never my hero. I admired him for being a survivor. For beating cancer but he could never fill or walk a mile in my Fathers shoes. Id tell him how i miss my Dad every single day. Id show him the picture of my Dad and i when i was probably 5 years old and we were both laughing. Id show him my Hero. My Dad never won a bike race. Never won any medals. He busted his ass every single day to provide for his family. Yeah, id tell him how my Dad helped everyone before he helped himself. He never wanted money from any help he had provided all he asked for was a simple thank you. What a simple concept. So to you Lance Armstrong i say thank you. Thank you for founding LIVESTRONG which is a free service for those who cant afford treatment.
There may be a part two of this blog I'm not really sure yet. It'd be contradicting myself but maybe ill do it anyway. Just my other side of how i feel about the situation. Thank you for reading this blog brought to you by the one, the only the Bear!!!! Have a good week everybody
This will be a sensitive subject for some people. And forgive me if my thoughts are all over the place. I found my Fight Club DVD!!!! Ive been going through mad withdrawals. But, no longer the case. Okay so as many of you have probably heard by now Lance Armstrong has become "the most hated man in America". A liar, a disgraced cyclist, So on and so forth. But Lance Armstrong also is a cancer survivor. Given a less than 10% chance of living. In fact it was just a matter of time before he died. I have been down the road of cancer. No i have never had the disease in my body but i saw what it did to my Dad. My Dad didn't battle his cancer for even two years before he succumb to the illness. That summer Lance went on to win the Tour De France. For those of you that don't know the Tour is a two week cycling event that takes place over in France. Its the biggest event in cycling. I knew of Armstrong and the fact that he was a survivor made me proud to see someone honor all the cancer patients all over the world. And personally it was a small somehow gratify feeling to know he kicked cancers ass!!
I wasn't a huge fan of cycling but when the Tour was on id watch ESPN to see how he was doing. Over the course of his domination(or lack there of) He would win seven straight Tour De France titles. I guess i was really naive to think he wasn't doping or cheating. I mean come on this guy defied death and beat the deadliest disease in the world. So if he could beat that why couldn't he win seven straight titles? He later would set up a non profit charity called LIVESTRONG yes i bought two of the yellow brackets and i still them Well one anyways not sure where the other one went.Fast forward to when the acquaintances started accusing of him doping i immediately said " Bullshit! Leave the guy alone he didn't cheat!" I just figured people were trying to make a name for themselves off Armstrong. You know how people are looking for the "Next Big Thing" It really upset me because i saw first hand the struggle cancer was. It was a fight. And this man beat it. Why cant they just accept it as a miracle and let him be? As to be expected he denied denied denied any wrong doing. What would he have to gain? I mean come on he was given a second chance at life why would he cheat? He had already won the biggest "race" of his life.
Little by little though it was starting to appear they had evidence to prove his guilt. In late 2012 or early 2013 he was stripped of his medals. And of course i was outraged. These bastards just aren't gonna give this up. What are they trying to prove??? Shortly after this he stepped down from his role at LIVESTRONG. Then came the report. He was doing an interview with Oprah where it was expected he would confess and talk about his years of doping. I was shock! Speechless! Pissed off and a bunch of other emotions but mostly i think i was hurt. Personally hurt. Like this guy basically was giving my Dad and i the finger. And the interview was so smug. Like he still felt he was the shit for what he pulled off. Arrogant bastard! I just sat there staring blankly at my television still in shock at what i was hearing. Then i though about all the people. I thought about my Dad. I thought about all of us who have been "victims" of this illness. I believed in Lance Armstrong. I believed in his seven titles. I believed he was a hero. I believed he rode for all the people affected by cancer worldwide. When Lance won we all won. We all celebrated a victory over cancer even if our loved ones didn't.
The reality of it all is a lie. Just a big lie he created to gain himself admiration and notoriety. He doesn't care about my Dad or Me or anybody else that fought the same battle he did. He won it. We lost it. He was given a second chance at life and he cheated death and well the rest of us for that matter. I don't hate Lance Armstrong. I don't wish any ill will onto him. All i wish is that i could sit down with him and tell him about the last two years of my Dads life. Tell him the joy and excitement we felt when the cancer was in remission only for it to come back stronger and it ultimately took my hero from me. Id tell Lance Armstrong he was never my hero. I admired him for being a survivor. For beating cancer but he could never fill or walk a mile in my Fathers shoes. Id tell him how i miss my Dad every single day. Id show him the picture of my Dad and i when i was probably 5 years old and we were both laughing. Id show him my Hero. My Dad never won a bike race. Never won any medals. He busted his ass every single day to provide for his family. Yeah, id tell him how my Dad helped everyone before he helped himself. He never wanted money from any help he had provided all he asked for was a simple thank you. What a simple concept. So to you Lance Armstrong i say thank you. Thank you for founding LIVESTRONG which is a free service for those who cant afford treatment.
There may be a part two of this blog I'm not really sure yet. It'd be contradicting myself but maybe ill do it anyway. Just my other side of how i feel about the situation. Thank you for reading this blog brought to you by the one, the only the Bear!!!! Have a good week everybody
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