Sunday, November 18, 2012

thankful for...

   Hello everybody! I hope you all are doing well. I'm doing pretty good. Looking forward to the holidays and spending time with family and friends. And relaxing!! So who's ready for Black Friday??? Yeah buddy! This guy is. Well actually Thursday shopping. As far as i know that maybe the only shopping i do on the most hectic day of the year. I am anxiously waiting. Even counting down the days. I just want a new PlayStation! Is that too much to ask?? And a new TV. and maybe a game or two. And a few movies. And...jeans. That's it i think. For now. LMAO! Oh and if i do get a new TV then I'm gonna need a new TV stand. Which i can already for see as an adventure. I'm really particular about things like this. In fact after i bought my current TV stand and had it put together i decided i didn't like it.  And if you ever have the experience of shoe shopping with me. Just be prepared. Fair warning. And yes i am i guy. Anyway i think I've rambled on long enough. Oh one more thing that should make a few of you chuckle. When i type i stare at my key board, i look up after i finish a sentence and reread it. I saw i made a spelling error. I raised my finger to touch my screen to highlight the error...like i do with my smart phone....Enjoy the blog.
     So this month on Facebook people are posting daily things they are thankful for. Well i like that idea but lets be honest I'm not on there enough to keep up with that, So here it is. This isn't on any specific order so don't give me any grief. First and foremost i am forever grateful for my parents. Granted they are in heaven but i still am grateful for them. They have shaped me into the person i am today. And they continue to inspire me daily. And i draw my strength from them and still believe they are the greatest parents in heaven or on earth. I'm thankful for my family. It maybe small but i know i can count on them day or night. They love and support me no matter what. Ive made dumb decisions and yet they still support me. Yes i know that's what family is for but, i appreciate it beyond words. My friends most of you are like family to me. And i consider you as my extended family.  You are there for me day and night. Mostly night right Erik? Time moves so fast and theres alot of times people lose touch with their friends. It has happened to me but my core friends are still here with me and for that i am truly thankful. Ive had so rough times and you guys were there for me and even when i didn't want/ need advice its nice knowing your all there.
    I thankful that I'm a healthy guy. Capable of moving freely throughout my day. Yes i have aches and pains but it could be alot worse. I take for granted that i have the ability to get myself in better shape but i just don't take the time to do so and hopefully i will start because i only have this body and i need to take better care of it. My cat Rocket, Hes like my kid. He is always here greeting me at the door when i get home. Keeps me company when I'm lonely and is a pain in the butt when he wants attention. But hes always a step behind me. Hes a pretty amazing cat. And unfortunately for him he gets to hear alot of my rants. But he doesn't seem to mind and he even seems to have answers sometimes. Now you all think I'm crazy. My job. Ive been there 5 years now and I'm so proud of that fact. My Dad was at his job 40 years, I have a ways to go but its my goal. I am blessed to have a job to go to on a daily basis. Somedays i don't wanna be there and my schedule is hectic but I'm thankful they gave me the opportunity. I complain but hey we all do.
    This part maybe a little silly but its me. I'm thankful for sports. Man where would i be without the Yankees? Or NASCAR? My dream was to play ball for the Yanks but it didn't work out. I love sports and well theres a point that was all i had so i buried myself in it. I get one month off a year from following my teams and sports. This world. Yes its scary and theres alot of bad in it but id like to think i have found a happy place. And have found my own little piece of heaven. I work daily to make needed adjustments but its a work in progress.
   To all of our troops. Past, Present and future. Thank you. From the bottom of my heart! Your daily sacrifice deserves more than a simple thank you. This is all i can offer, Its for your sacrifice that allows me to sit here and type this using my own words, I have the utmost respect for all of you. I have hopes and dreams. Goals for myself and for my life and without any of you i wouldn't be able to pursue these hopes and dreams. I salute each and everyone of you. Thank you for all that you do May all of you have a safe and happy Thanksgiving. To anybody who has had an influences in my world i thank you. In some way you have taught me a lesson. In some way i have learned from you. Im a;so thankful for my future and all it holds. Good and bad. The oppurtunities that i will have. The conversations and memories that will be made. The laughs. The tears Im gonna be thankful for all of it.
    Everybody have a great Holiday and if you go shopping black Friday remember your manners we are all there for the same reason. Theres no reason to be ignorant to each other. Thank you all for reading my blog. Stay tuned for more :)

Sunday, November 4, 2012

a quick thought here

   Hey everybody! Hope this finds you all safe and sound to whatever extent is possible. So as you all know the East Coast was hit by Hurricane Sandy.  Well maybe you don't. Just wanted to take a second and send my thoughts and prayers to all those effected by this tragedy. I know it doesn't help clean up or fix anything but its really heart felt from me. Hopefully the clean up goes fast . We got wind and rain here not much damage. The bridge flooded but that was about it. Hopefully those who are able to help can and will. Even a small donation will help. These people have lost all of their possessions and homes and some even lost loved ones. Now i know money cant bring anybody back from the dead. And i am no way saying money is more important but it would help the red cross and other efforts. Please keep in mind that its November and the days and nights are getting colder so any blankets or warmer clothes would be appreciated too. Thank you for your time and thanks for your support.  And remember someday you may need a helping hand. Wouldn't it be nice to know there are people out there willing to help?

I am nothing

        Im not real.Like a land of giants or mythalogicakl creatures created in someones imagination. Only brought to life by the readers imagination.Im that space you try to fill. The reason the object wont fit where you want it too. I wont allow this to happen. Because i take up that space. That moment in between the seconds that click on the hands of a clock just before the hands move. Im the space being pushed forward by the hands of time. The air in a room you cant see but everyone knows im there. You think you know but you have no idea. Im the reasons you have and need to proceed your daily routines. That voice you almost think you hear or the shadow you swear you saw. It wasnt real it was me. Do you understand this? No you dont and you cant, I wont let you understand. The part of your brain that allows your thoughts is me. When you react in any form. Happy. Sad, Mad Indifferent. anything you feel.