Saturday, July 28, 2012

reflections and current events

   Good evening everybody!! I hope all is good and your weekend is going good. Fore warning I'm not really sure what i will be writing about tonight. I have a few ideas but not really sure which direction i will go. So i will just throw my thoughts at the keyboard and see what sticks.
   So today i attended a graduation party. It was kind of surreal and unbelievable that's 11 years ago i was at my grad party. Man i remember the excitement of finally being done with school. Knowing i had the whole world out there for me to explore! And there for awhile i was really thinking about moving away and seeing what i could find. Obviously i didn't cause here i sit. Not a bad thing i really probably wouldn't have been able to leave. In all honesty id miss my brother way too much! Looking back im really surprised he didn't knock the shit out of me. I can be really hard to deal with and back then i was probably a handful. We use to get into arguments and there have been a few days we didn't speak. I think it was a tough time for both of us back then and it was our way of venting. So hey why not fight with each other. Lol. You know its funny how looking back now i know he was always looking out for me. Too bad that stubborn side of me was in control. Now i go to him for advice quite a bit. Even though hes a Jeff Gordon fan he is still a great guy.I have always looked up to him.
    It was so weird today because it was almost like a reunion today except everybody has had kids in the past ten years well except me. I keep telling myself when the time is right. Til then i wait. I may not be playing for the Yankees like i dreamed but i have a good job. Pay my bills and am working towards my goals. I haven't taken much time for fun but i have done one thing and that's worked and worked hard. I may not have much to show for it but im working on that part to and that's a slow process but in time i will get there. I really need a plan. More than just work work work. I feel like im working towards retirement but in the meanwhile i have things i want now. I don't want to wait thirty tears and be like yeah now i can get these things i want. Like a new house. Its like i have a hundred things i want to do all at once and well obviously i cant do them all at the same time.I will tell you something i really miss my PlayStation!!! Its going on three weeks now since i took it to get repaired. The game card broke not the laser. A few will understand that joke. The PlayStation 2 just isn't cutting it anymore. It was a tide me over but dammit i want to play ops!!
    I know this next subject will sit well with some and others will shutter at the thought. I am one to shutter. Its only two days from August which means Summer is winding down already. Damn where does the time go? I still haven't made it to the race track in p.a. Although i am going to Watkins Glen in a couple of weeks!!!! I cant wait! My escape from everything.Still don't know if we are camping or not. I kind of want to just go the day of but hey im down for whatever. This whole year has been a set back. Lack of hours at work mean lack of money and i have to buy pellets still. Oh well hopefully the cold weather is still at least three months away. I just feel overwhelmed at times with all this stuff. Man does it ever end? Things will get better right/ Right? As long as i stay busy it'll keep my mind busy from it all. Well i think im going to end this for the night. Maybe ill post another one tomorrow seens i have been slacking lately. Actually work has been mad crazy these last few weeks. Ever since that week off things have been just hectic. The start times were different everyday last week. This week looks a little better as far as times. Hopefully i walk out of there before 230 and 330. But im making paper and i have a job some aren't as lucky so ill take it and smile. Good night everybody

Thursday, July 19, 2012

rant post my apologies...

     How is someone suppose to maintain a happy positive outlook on life with so much negativity all around? It seems that's all anyone ever talks about. The news is talking about drugs and a murder. Weather related disasters. Very few positive stories for people to hear about. Maybe we are all doomed to suffer. Theres more to life than pain and suffering isn't there? More to it than hurt. Wheres the joy? Where are the happy stories? Its no wonder everybody is depressed and on meds for various reasons. What happen to the fairy tales? Happily ever after has become depressed over and over again.
     It really is bothersome to think about it. How can we make changes for the better? If not for everybody then just for ourselves. I mean that's what it is all about right? Ourselves. What we can get out of my situatimome whats in it for me? Don't get me wrong, I'm not running around all smiles all day long but I'm also not expecting anybody to feel bad for me. I don't look for any sympathy. How can we take all the negative and turn it positive? There has to be a place to start. Maybe its something small like a "thank you" or even something as simple as a smile. I know that concept for some people is difficult. Maybe people make their lives difficult on purpose. They just walk around looking at everything in the negative light. No matter what the situation they find something wrong with it. I cant stand a pity party especially when people are doing absolutely nothing to try and change the situation for the better. Instead they just sit around mopping about how bad it is. Like seriously? Do something about it! Maybe its easier said than done but i bet its easier once you take that first step towards making a change.
     I apologize i think this is turning into a rant post. I also cant stand fake ass people! I'm so tired of people playing nice. Its all an act especially when i see it and call it bullshit! Then guess what everyone else sees i was right. Just remember you are only as fake as your lies and the persona you try and act tough behind. Like seriously it really pisses me off when i know who you really are and then you try and act shady behind my back and i call it and it happens. Look i get it you wanna fit in that's great but get off my shit! You're not as real as you claim too be. We all know it. I'm not the greatest and i only claim to be when I'm in that mood but I'm real as fuck. What you see is what you get. I tell it the way it is and the way i see it. Don't like it? That's okay I'm not trying to impress anybody. Those who like me like me for me. Am i a prick yeah i can be but hey I've been shit on by alot of people and after you get kicked enough when you are down eventually you get back on your feet and fight back.This isn't me acting tough so please don't start hating this is a rant. I really don't like that fake ass smile you have because i know the truth and you know damn well i do.
       Ive been though alot and well as sad as it is i failed to use it as motivation but i didn't use it as my excuses. Did i mess up yeah but i also learned a really important lesson. At the end of the day no matter how many " have my back" they don't. When the sun goes down and I'm here like this moment i have myself. I sit here in this house thinking. I look around all the people are gone and its just me. No I'm not hating on my friends i know who you are and i also know you have lives of your own and that wont change. We all understand things get busy. If something happens that's when we are there for each other but by that time its too late cause it already happened. Maybe I've been hardened by this life. The past events have caused some hard feelings. Not towards anybody in particular they are just there. I want to make a change and i feel the only way for this to happen is to let go of what i have known as the way of my life these past few years. But then again it wouldn't be much different than it is now. Crazy talk i know but i know it would work as it did before. Maybe that's what i have to do the you'll see what i was and what i shall become. I want more than this. I need more than this. I have worked to hard not to get what i deserve. I hear it everyday my soul telling me I'm better than the way i have been so far. I always look towards the horizon, plan for the tomorrows but someday the tomorrows will stop and regardless of what i did or didn't do is irrelevant but if it happens like i feel it will i don't wanna be laying around at the end of this and asking myself  "why did you waste this life?" I don't want to lay there and damn myself for just letting life pass like a cool breeze. That's not why I'm here. And im not here busting my ass to give you the easy life!!
    I'm not going to cure cancer. Or climb Everest but i do want more than where I'm going. I want my potential to be fulfilled. Maybe this writing is what I'm suppose to do. Not as a job but as a way to get myself out thereim notoking for fame. I'm not content just sitting here anymore. I wish i had some more resources near me. More friends. Less pity parties. More sunshine and less rain clouds. I know better than anybody how hard times are but that shouldn't be the reason or the excuse as to why things are the way they are. I need a plan. I mean i have one i just need to get it in motion. Its no good to me with it just sitting next to me looking for a push. Things take time and time that I've wasted on the past is gone but i have forever to look forward too. I really don't know if this is making sense and seens i don't re read what i write ill never know.
     Theres a part of me that i lost. I know where when and even how i lost it, It was the fire that was inside of me. My heart was gone. The desire to be the best. Its slowly coming back and i should have never let myself lose it. I feel it. I feel this in my soul. I'm so hell bent on fixing all of this i swear it'll happen or I'm going to die trying! I want the best i deserve better than being walked on. Deserve better than to be taken for granted and i will make you regret with all your being for walking on me and hurting me. Ill prove all of you wrong. Someday someway i will do this. And if i don't then i fail. No big deal I've failed before and am still here. Don't start taking credit for the change because its not you its the tired feeling of failing. The empty feeling of knowing i shouldn't be in a struggle. Theres no reason its like this. I'm making a change and weither it takes a month a year a decade I'm gonna make this change for the better. Make it for me. For myself for a change. Because i deserve this more than ever. I want this more than ever. If it means putting other things I've dreamed about on hold than so be it. If its real then its gonna happen regardless....
    Wow! okay I think I'm done.. for now. This isn't directly pointed at anybody its just the way i feel lately. Ive been there for so many people and at this moment i really don't feel like any of them are in it with me and for me. They come around when they want or need something and fail to repay the favor. I'm tired of it. I have my own back because all the others have seemed to fail at it. I was told awhile ago to stop caring for everybody else beacuse when the tables are reversed you;; see who really cares. Well that statement is so true. Ive seen whos really here and who was as fake as the smile on their face! Step out of my shadow and people will see the truth.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

im a runner

I'm a runner. I run from the past. Not outta fear but outta pain. Outta anger. I try to escape the hurt that was caused. Maybe that's why I don't come around often. Dealing and reeling the past. If I avoid things then I won't have a reason to get away. Stand on the outside and watch.
As a spectator. I find myself use to this way if life so its awkward and difficult to put myself out there too people. The disappointment some have caused puts a fear if it happening again and this causes a cation like no other than I use. I know the heartache, the pain, and hurt that was caused by reckless love. Never intended to hurt me but did a great job in doing so.so much I long for. So many dreams I have yet to live and experience. Often wonder when and if they'll come true. Scared to put myself out there for fear of the pain that can be caused. Maybe I'm just tired of hurting. Maybe I've convinced myself to turn off my feelings and now they are gone. Maybe I've out run them. Left all of them behind. I should've stopped and let them catch up but I just kept going. Kept driving because I got tired of them being hurt. Tired of the reasons and excuses people used to hurt them so I did what they did and abandoned them. I've gone back to find them and save what pieces may have been left over but they are still missing. Gone forever? I hope not. I hope to figure things out before its too late. Its easier to put forth effort into other things such as sports. It keeps my mind occupied keeps me busy from thinking so much. Sometimes i wonder if i somehow set myself up for this. Knowing things weren't gonna happen and yet i still set for it. Thinking it would be a different outcome but inside i knew it wouldn't end any other way than it ultimately did. Maybe it'll be different one day...

  **i wrote this on my phone. i dont know how long itll be so maybe i will write another one later today

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Back to work i went...

     Work work work! And I'm glad to be back! Yes i really mean that. The week of was really nice. But by the end of it i was definitely ready to get back to the grind. I didn't get everything done but i didn't relax. This week has been nine and a half hour days. Which will make up for the lack of a paycheck this week.
     This blog isn't me whining or complaining or anything like that just my thoughts. Ive been thinking about this lately and I'm gonna try and put it together in a pretty little blog. Ive noticed something about myself and about this life i live. If it isn't one thing it really is another. And at the end of the day i continue to push forward as only i know how too.I never really thought of myself as much of a fighter but didn't realize there is another type of fighting. It doesn't have to be a physical fight. Its a fight against the hands i get dealt. Don't get me wrong i have it better than some and I'm not saying i don't but man and i know we all go through this it seems like every time i get a footing i get knocked down again. In someway or another. i begin to think I'm on my way and something else comes along and sets me back. And what do i do? Fall further into the grasp looking up at the sky.
     I wonder how the people who "made it" got where they are. Hard work? I work hard. I go to work everyday. The days i don't go i use a vacation day so its not like i just blow it off and just don't show. They frown on that. Yes i know from experience. But I've grown up. Maybe that's why it looks like I'm always mad. Its my fighting face, Because everyday I'm in a battle fighting the hands of fate. How does somebody start over? I mean yeah you can wake up and say " Its a new day time to start fresh" but, in reality yesterday's problems are still there. Yesterdays stress hasn't gone away just because its a new day. So how can i start over? How can i really legitimately wipe the slate clean and start over? Somebody please tell me. I would really like too. See i don't think you can. I think its a rebuilding process but its so hard to stay on course and rebuild to a fresh start. Even with a game plan and all the planning i still seem to fail at my plan. So what do i do? Start fresh everyday.
     Somedays i wanna throw the towel in and say screw this.But I'm way better than that and it'll never ever happen. So i press on believing that tomorrow will be a better day and that i will figure out this life and figure out how to get on the right path. Still wanna know where to start or even how.  If there was a point where i went wrong i know when and where it was. But i cant go back to change it. Its like i have dug myself a hole and its too deep now and I'm digging from the underground up. I keep saying i just need a break. Just a string of good luck. And all in the same breath i know i have it decent. Not perfect but its not the worst either. I had a good start on life but i kept using that as an excuse and not a reason to get a better start on life. Now that start came with the biggest sacrifice one could imagine. And i would have gave up the good start to have back what i lost. I was thinking about people today and the living they have. All the different jobs in the world. How did they learn the trade they do. What lead them to where they are, where they live, why they decided to be there. Yes i have alot of time to think at my job and i use it really well.
      I think fear held me back from alot. Well mostly failure which is stupid as hell. I tell my friend Erik i wish back then i was who i am today. In the sense of not worrying about the little things. If i had the nerve that i have today. I can list the would have, could have, should have and its a mile long. I know boo who cry me a river. Yeah life's tough and I've had it easy and i blame myself for that. I took the easy road and too be completely honest i wish i hadn't. When i graduated high school i should have ran with it. I should have had this world by the balls. But i had to work and create a living for myself. I knew what i had too do and that was work. That's how i was raised. There was no time to stop. I had to support myself, So my option was too work. And now i cant stop. Hey i have to be good at something. I do love my job and i mean that. Some days its a pain in the foot but i enjoy it. I do however wanna kick my ass for just settling for things in the beginning of "my  life" Some days id love to just pack up and go. Anywhere just go and find a new life but id miss this one alot. Probably too much. Not matter what i may find this is the life i chose and its the life i live. Would i trade it? Yeah some days but i think if i had my way id change things. Just small adjustments to improve it. Maybe with some hard work some way i will change the things i want and things will start working out in my favor. My next issue is where to start on the LIST of changes!? Well everyone thanks for reading sorry its been a few days. This blog really had to happen for my sake. I hope you enjoy it and maybe you can relate.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

the day after and the following days...

    So did everybody survive the Fourth of July?Hopefully the worst that happened was a hangover for y'all. Sorry i didn't know what to put at the end of that previous sentence. Anyway, How was your fourth? I hope you all had a great day and if you didn't well better luck in September.
    So as every year for the fourth my brother and i ride our bikes uptown to watch the parade. It seems easier than fighting traffic and all the headaches of waiting for some jerk to let us in line.You all know exactly what I'm talking about and if you don't go shopping on black Friday! Not quite as bad but you get the idea.  So it was suppose to rain on the fourth of July i read afternnoonish which concerned me for the fireworks. Of all the days not the fourth!!!  The parade started and as it started the dark clouds started looking ominous. Oh boy this isn't looking good. Maybe they will just pass over us. "Maybe we should leave" my brother said. " Um this maybe a good idea. Uh oh i think i felt a rain drop." i said. "I thought i did too. We better head back. We can always come back up later." He said. And we were off!! As we were riding down the dirt driveway we both noticed something rather odd. Not only were the skies getting incredibly darker but apparently we were the only two that were able to see this phenomenon. People were walking towards the parade, "Do they not see the dark clouds?" "I dunno" and then it happened...A crash of thunder followed by the downpour of a lifetime! It was literally as if someone had an endless bucket of water and was pouring it directly on the world. The ride was just a wet blur. There was water everywhere! My clothes seemed to just absorb the water or maybe it was just that much rain. In fact i haven't seen it rain that hard that fast in awhile! I could barely see in front of me. My glasses were slipping and then i realized the worst possible thing in the world! MY PHONE!!!! It was probably drowning. Damn i cant afford a new phone! So rather than peddle harder i check to see if its soaked but no not yet!! Better ride faster! Unfortunately my legs were on fire by this point! Water splashing and zinging off the tires! And low and behold whats up ahead?? A busier than usual intersection, Are you kidding me? So its pouring and here we are standing at an intersection. Finally a break although i should have shifted gears to a lower gear. But no harm no foul. So we finally made it home and i pulled my phone out and...oh thank goodness it seemed to be in working condition still but, the storm is causing issues with it. As far as water damage i think its safe. Despite what some of you may think you know I'm not really texting much anymore. Its pretty much my Internet. And i really didn't wanna go through the hassle of getting a new one plus i think i already used my insurance claim thingy so it'd probably cost me retail for a new phone and they can..well forget that. Anyway fast forward to later that evening and the main event! Now maybe it was because i was anticipating them and hadn't seen them in a year but man i was kind of disappointed in them this year! Even the grande finale was weak, I don't know maybe the ground was still wet and that may have hampered them but i was disappointed. The lesson here is to never over anticipate things otherwise you ll end up disappointed!
    So i know its early and all but I'm so ready for fantasy football! In fact i have been doing mock drafts the last few days! How pathetic is that? Trying to perfect my almost certain to fail strategedy. No its cool because you can set yourself up in different spots in the draft order and see how players get drafted. Yeah its different every time but you know what i need no explanation of the stuff i do. *laughing* Last years strategy seemed to work pretty good until the playoffs then i was bounced and lost all my games. I call myself the regular season champ. I'm not sure how I'm gonna do it this year. i do know it fun as hell and this year i can do a live draft! As long as my Internet connection cooperates with me. And that's another reason I'm doing the mock drafts...yeah. Next!
     Its gonna be another great sports weekend. Yankees are gonna crush the Red Sux. I'm gonna say we sweep them. BOOM! Then Saturday night is the race in Daytona. i love Daytona. The pack racing is awesome! Plus Dale Junior normally does decent there until he gets caught up in the wrecks at the end, And its gonna finish under the lights which adds more excitement to it. I know they are just going around in circles. And that is why you are narrow minded. Theres alot more to it.Maybe just maybe Junior can win again!! That would be awesome but i will settle for a top five and no less than a top ten. So my Saturday night seems to be filled. Unfortunatly my vacation is coming to an end but its been nice having this time off to recover of sorts. Too bad it doesnt happen every year. And hopefully we get our hot days out of the way so its not like an oven in there no pun intended. Well folks I'm gonna sign off for the night and i just want to take another moment and thank all of the troops all over the world. It is because of you that i can enjoy all of my freedoms. Good night everybody and thanks for reading.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

What my freedom means to me..

       Yes i know i am about four minutes early but regardless I'm still gonna start this and by the time I'm done it will be the fourth of July. Now i may sound selfish in this particular blog but hey I'm allowed once in awhile. First and foremost THANK YOU TO ALL THE MEN AND WOMAN PAST PRESENT AND FUTURE who serve this great country and protect us from the evil of the world. God bless each and everyone of you.
     I wake up everyday at whatever time i want. I go to bed whenever i want. Nobody tells me when i am suppose to do either. I disagree with peoples opinions and have the right to voice my own. Case and point right here and now. As you read this you are allowed to disagree or agree with me freely. In fact you can even post your thoughts and opinions in the comment box at the bottom of this page. I can cheer for whatever team i choose, although theres no choice other than the Yankees. I'm allowed to love freely and nobody can stop that. I was born and raised in the greatest country in the world! In this country i may get grief from my friends or even strangers but I'm still allowed to voice my thoughts freely and openly. Today we celebrate our countries independence. Our freedoms and our rights. We celebrate life,liberty and the pursuit of happiness. Today will be filled with cookouts. Sharing laughs and memories with family and friends. Watching parades and going to gatherings. Now I'm sure alot of us wont take a moment and think about it but we really are very lucky to live in a free country. I mean we don't have a war going on. No bombs going off at any moment. We can do and say what we want within reason of course.
    The fireworks are the best part for me. I love the grande finale and i get chills and goose bumps every time i watch the end. I don't know why i just do. During the fireworks i find myself thinking of our troops who are overseas fighting for us. Fighting for our way of life.  I am very patriotic. Theres nothing better than living in the United States of America. Everything about us is the greatest. Ill never be able to comprehend the daily struggles that our troops face on a daily basis. Knowing when they board that plane they may not see their family for months even years again. That's sacrifice. That's a sacrifice that can never be repaid! Its a nice feeling knowing when i go back to work ill be getting paid a decent wage with benefits, and i wont be making pennies or working for free because in America we are independent and are given opportunity to make a living. Our soldiers make this all possible for fighting for each and everyone of us. They are risking their lives everyday for us to have the freedoms we take for granted. So while you are laughing and having a good time take a moment and think of the reason why we are able to be enjoying the day. Take the moment to think of our bravest. If you know any soldiers thank them. Let them know you appreciate the sacrifice they made and continue to make.
    I will forever be grateful and indebted to each and everyone of them. Yes i will be enjoying a parade in the morning (pending the weather. Its currently raining) and the festivities at the local park. And i can hardly wait to watch the fireworks. But in the back of my mind i will silently take a moment and say a prayer for all the men and women who are fighting our battles all over the world. I will pray for the safe return and a speedy recovery for those inquired. And a special prayer for the families and friends of fallen soldiers. For it is their sacrifice, which is the ultimate sacrifice that gives each of us our freedoms that we take for granted. Words are never enough but thank you to all of you from the bottom of my heart for your courage and bravery. You all are true American hero's and deserve to be recognized everyday not just the fourth of July or Memorial day but, everyday. theres a line in a Toby Keith song that goes "You ll be sorry that you messed with the U.S. of A cause well put a boot in your ass its the American way!!!!" Thank you and may God bless each and everyone of you no matter where you are. And may God bless the United States of America. Good night and happy fourth of July to all. :)

Monday, July 2, 2012

A wrestling fan..

     Good monday evening everybody!! As many of you may know mondays are for one thing and one thing only..WRESTLING! Yes! Not football not whatever maybe on but wrestling. Now im a bit of a wrestling geek and im proud to admit it. This blog is dedicated to the wrestling geek in all of us.
   Now i admit the WWE isnt what it use to be. Like many fans i long for the chair to the head. Foul language. Blood and gore that was wrestling. The almost always guarentee of blood in the main event of every pay per view. But now its replaced with chants of lets go Cena, Cena sucks. And even though im still in the middle of weither or not i should be a member of cenation, I know he doesnt suck. He is just always there! Every damn main event on raw. Every pay per view main event! Hes everywhere! But the kids love him and thats all that matters so i say hes there to stay. And i also want to say..Im sorry for all the older fans who went through the Hogan era when i was a kid. Now i know how you feel!! What is it about wrestling that i love? I really donty know. Maybe its the athleticism or the storylines. Maybe the way they feed the character and make it believable. I know its all a show and its entertainment but i enjoy it.
      I mean how cool would it be to be a wrestler!? Traveling the world. Having millions of fans. The lights,the glitz,the glamor. The competition for the title. Or making a heel(bad guy) turn. The show isnt the way it use to be. Nowadays its almost a guarentee everybody at a point with turn heel/ or face at some point. If memory serves correctly back then it was rare for a turn and when it happened it was a shock.. Some of the storylines were ruined by  the writers not knowing how to tell the story or maybe they just didnt know what to do. I need to be a writer for the WWE. The Nexus storyline was great! That monday where they invaded and took over raw was phenominal! That had so much potential  they could have ran with that for months. The C.m Punk storyline half real shoot also had potential. They should have had him stay away for awhile with the title rather than let Cena win it on raw the next night and then they had Punk show up. Poorly written. Dont take this as a bashing blog either. Im sure the job isnt easy. Im sure they are burned out of ideas for all the wrestlers and trying to come up with new and creative ways to put forward the product. There are few moments that leave me in aww now.
    C.m punk vs Daniel Bryan has so much potential. Those two guys have the ability to tell a story that could go down in history. Much like Bret Hart use to do. And although i still like watching their matches i dont feel the extra things are needed. Although A.j adds an interesting element to the matches cause i have no idea what shes thinking(as the case with most women ) And now at this very moment the Macho Man was talking to me but now hes gone. No im not crazy. Dolph Ziggler reminds me of Mr. Perfect just the apperance and the arrogent attitude. That guy has a promising career. Hopefully he is used properly because he could be around a long time like Shawn Michaels was. Soetimes i sit here and wonder what the hell are they thinking? Santino as a champion? Jerry Lawler vs Michael Cole/ And what the hell are they doing with Jack Swagger?? He  is a main eventer as well but they arent using him to his full potential. I really wish they would let these guys just do what they do with no scripts. No storyline. Just a wrestling match like they use to do. Can i ask you a question?What is a funkasauras??? Because ive never heard of it until Brodious Clay showed up.I think one of the things that i still love is you never know whats gonna happen next. Recently i relized all the guys i grew up watching are slowly fading away. Some are even dying. I mean Jerry Lawler, Triple H and the Undertaker are pretty much the only guys left from my youth. Yes they bring back a few legends from time to time but that obviously isnt the same. As with most things times change. And we have to find a new favorite to cheer for and we sit in our seats wondering i wonder who would win in a match of Cm Punk against Bret Hart. Or Chris Benoit against Jack Swagger. I wish when Vince/Shane bought WCW they would have left it as WCW. And kept the two seperate brands. They lost alot of great wrestlers. Ive read alot of the guys didnt want to work for Vince. In away it was bad for business when WCW was bought because well when you buy the competition theres nobody to match yourself against. Nothing to compete against. Its like the modern day Wal Mart. Who do they  have to compete against? Target? Theres not a Target in every other town. Kmart? I can think of one Kmart store left. Theres no competition for them. So they pretty much rule. And im not saying the WWE product isnt good but it could be better but as with anything when theres no healthy competition to compete against then thers no bar to measure against. Sure there is TNA but honestly TNA is like ECW use to be.
   Dear Big Show. Your 500 pounds. You stand seveb feet tall. You should be a champion and nobody should beat you ever! I dont care who it is. You should be feared. Other wrestlers should avoid you. Dear C.M Punk since your pipebomb you have become.. well soft. You no longer drop pipebombs i understand though. You got what you want I still like your character though. Dear John Cena Love you or hate you. You are respected by me. Thank you for all you do and everybody just stopped reading this blog! Heel turn anybody? Dear Dolph Ziggler Boom! You are the future of the business just keep doing the right thing. You will be a hall of famer. Dear Jack Swagger stop combing your hair like that. I cant take you serious with your hair like that. Pure ability though. Okay i think im done with this blog. I really would like to write for the WWE. Obviously itll never happen but if Shawns boyhood dream can come true and Mick Foley can pretend to be the Superfly then i can dream about a life of writing stories for wrestlers that fans adore. Thank you for reading a geeks writing about wrestling :)

Sunday, July 1, 2012

sunday nights post...

      Hello everybody! So here it is a new month  and i made it through June relativly unscratched! Just a little bump but im still here so ill make it. And ironically enough Smokey and the Bandit is on. My Dad and i use to rent this movie every Saturday from the library. So Ill take it as a sign and smile to the heavens. Its gonna be weird not going to work this week but im looking forward to it. And on that note on to the blog.
    I think tonights will probably be all over because it was a busy weekend. And the subject i wanna write about has to wait until i have it all figured out in my head. Otherwise its just gonna be a jumbeled mess. In fact i may have to do a rough draft then a final copy. Just like we use to have to do in school. And then i have to figure out if i wanna post it. It may ruffle feathers. But not on purpose but just because its in my head and ive been thinkiing about it alot lately. For once in my life im pretty clear on what i want. Although i have known it just seems to be taking forever!!
    So this weekend was another fast one! Man i really dont know why they are going so damn fast all of a sudden. Today We rode 20 miles on our bikes. freaking awesome! BOOM!! Thats how we roll. I think the ride were doing the 21st is about twenty five miles. Needless to say im drinking water like crazy! I really cant wait to get out tomorrow and ride more! I told my brother im gonna ride all day tomorrow. Im not really sure where i will go but ill keep peddling and ill find somewhere to go. Id really like to go the adirondacks and ride the trails they have up there. Until then ill take the roads and tracks around here. This blog is taking me a littl elonger than i thought. Gosh i love this movie! Although its edited for tv.
      I sat at the lake tonight watching the sun set. Its so beautiful and peaceful. The sun reflecting off the water. There were ducks swimming around.It was nice. Too bad i was alone Well other than the people in the other cars but that would have been mad awkward to get in the car with them, Maybe next time ill sit on the beach. As we were riding bikes today i was thinking itd be kind of cool to own a house on the lake front. Although the seaweed and dead fish are a horrible smell itd still make for beautiful scenery. I already have my house picked out. I just hope the owner will keep paying the mortgage and will let me live there...doubtful though. There are some really nice houses down that way. Makes me wonder how people afford it and what the hell kind of job do they have!? Maybe someday ill get a new house.Another one of those dreams.
     Now for the daily sports portion of my blog. The Yankees won again today. The All-Star voting was todat Jeter, Cano and Granderson were voted starters! Way to go guys! Always making me proud. We seem to be clicking right now and despite injuries to Andy Mo and C.C the pitchers seem to have stepped up. This weeks fantasy baseball match up resulted in a lose but thats okay because i really dont expect to win many weeks. This weeks race was in Kentucky. This was the second year the sprint cup guys have been there. Junior started sixth i think. He finished fourth and he during the post race interview he said he wanted to win. He said hes getting impatient already! That cracked me up! Ill take the top fives and hell yeah i wanna win but as long as we keep running great the wins will come. Hold on the end on Satb is on be right back...ten minutes later! Yay they got away! I didnt watch the race in fact i walked in to catch the interviews. Damn saturday night races . Not really. I like the saturday night racing they seem more intense.  Like Junior said the summer months have been historically bad for him so hopefully this year will be better and maybe...nah i wont say it. I dont want to jinx it.
       We may not have fireworks on the fourth!!! This makes me mad. I get fireworks twice a year and the fourth is one of them. I guess there have been a few places cancelling them due to the dryness weve had and they are worried about fires. But its suppose to rain either monday or tuesday. Maybe if they get cancelled on wednesday then we will have them on the weekend. fingers crossed! And for the record i miss the hell out of my playstation. Ugh! Maybe someday ill get a new one. But right now its definatly not in my budget. Not much is right now. I know boo whoo. Well i have to be up around 9 so i gotta head to bed. So good night and thank you for reading about my life.